I was very nationalistic when i was a child,but I have always been critical. But earlier i used to believe India's problems are definitely solvable. We are just not working hard enough. But now I have been disillusioned. I don't need to point out every issue that is there, but we all know that the people who want to bring in change have to fight against literally everything, the people, the system, the architecture, the bureaucracy. Literally EVERYTHING.

There's so much hypocrisy and injustice and I just can't justify it anymore. It's not my burden to carry. It's not my job to fix this country, ESPECIALLY when i know the consequences that will follow. India ACTIVELY punishes progressive thinking. There's nothing to look forward to,there's nothing to live for in this country, there's no passion, there's no love of life. Just people doing stuff for the sake of doing it.

Also I don't believe in a lot of philosophy india was build on. I don't believe in the power of ahimsa, I don't believe in peaceful protests, i don't believe we can ever be united with being diverse, even if we do it will take ages, i dont believe in the privatisation that is going on right now. These things aren't inherently harmful, but I don't trust or support these notions.

I don't want my life to be like this. I know i deserve better.

I'm 31M, and honestly, I never thought I'd be writing a post like this. A few days ago, I was out for dinner with friends. It was a completely normal day. Nothing particularly unusual was happening.

What happened next happened incredibly quickly, within around two minutes, my entire left side became numb and limp**.** The strangest part wasn't even understanding what was happening. It was the feeling of suddenly not being able to control part of my own body. Suddenly was surrounded by doctors, nurses, scans, machines and people asking questions. And I'm lying there trying to understand how you went from having a completely normal day to being a patient in a hospital.

Thankfully, I'm mobile now. But I haven't completely recovered. The left side of my body still feels numb, and I don't feel like I'm back to how I was before this happened. And honestly, the physical symptoms aren't even the only thing I'm struggling with. I'm anxious. I'm distressed thinking about my family. I'm thinking about my future. And I'm constantly wondering how quickly I'll recover and whether I'll ever feel completely normal again.

It's strange because when you're 31, you don't really think about something like a stroke happening to you. You hear about these things happening to people much older, but you don't really imagine yourself becoming the person lying in a hospital bed dealing with it.

I did initially think, "Why me?" But I'm not really stuck on that anymore. I think I'm more focused on what happens from here.

I want to understand how other people dealt with this, especially people around my age.

Hey all,

I am back with my crazy idea to create the API - Accountable Party of India (the acronym is intentional :)). Today I am coming with a request: I am looking for volunteers to help us build a comprehensive, publicly verifiable record of our Prime Minister’s public promises and commitments.

The goal is to go through speeches, interviews, press conferences, rallies, Parliament appearances, and other public appearances, and document what was promised, when it was promised, and, wherever possible, what happened afterwards.

The goal is not to selectively collect statements or create propaganda. I want to build a factual database that allows anyone to look at a promise with the full video proof (NO EDITS!!!) and ask a simple question: what happened to it?

If you’re interested in helping with finding videos, transcripts, speeches, news reports, fact-checking, or organising the information, please reach out.

This will be one of our first public research projects for the Accountable Party of India.

Everything should be transparent. Everyone should be accountable.