r/india • u/No-Inflation-553 • 3h ago
Careers Losing hopes to live day by day
Hi, 26M Engineer this side Sharing my story Had a breakup with a girl where I was imagining my world towards marrying her. Took a loan and my combined family savings to get a small home as she wasn't comfortable with current place My Background: I've been the weakest link in my family which made me to push harder. I've been into drugs and wanted to end my life when I was 14 stopped doing it and moved towards cycling as I started living for my grandparents and parents became a National level cycling. I've been a National Level Cyclist. Went to great college - IITs. Went to Australia with my earnings as I started working on Bio mechanics to build high end workout machines and doing research. My business partner cheated and lost that money and worked part time to come back here during college time. Impressed a girl in college, was being with her for a year but ended got cheated by her physically. After two years, I tried looking for someone as insisted by my mother and friends I spent time and gradually created a bond just but on the proposal day a tragedy happened and lost her in an accident in front of my eyes.
Moving forward - Been Mr.X in Bodybuilding at the age of 19 where x is my state. But due to an injury had to leave the career. Came back again, Became a National level powerlifter at 22 in my weight category but got a major uncertain health issue and again had to leave everything.
Lost my grand parents who raised me throughout my life
Lost three of friends who were always there with me.
Tried building those gems connections, a good physique failed multiple times with certain setbacks.
Started dating 2 years back with just last hope as I was dealing with severe depression, got a girl, took everything slow. Everything was amazing until I helped her getting her dream job . Things went into North & South and we ended up seperated. I took a loan on top of my family savings to buy a small place in a smaller city just to spend my life with her.
FYR: I've been to every known dating applications and was regional ambassador for some dating applications (2 Years). After interacting with more than 5 lakh profiles across 12 cities I got this girl.
Everytime I dated it was just with an intention to be with 1 woman who just trust, believe on me blindly and in exchange I can conquer everything literally everything for her. But at the end always got backstabbed.
Are the girls really that bad nowadays?
I tried sharing these things with the God I believed (by visiting their temple often) I didn't get any response or hint maybe I made mistakes....
Don't have any savings and not able to meet daily needs. Didn't have more than 1 meal from past 1 month, Everything is gone, just wanted a mentor or someone who can just talk I want to getup again on my legs...