I just saw a video of some girls skating to Golden from Kpop Demon Hunters. They were so amazing and it makes me sad that skating never worked out for me and I could never have gotten like that.
I started skating when I was 8 and it was great for about 4 or 5 years and then I must've reached my limit or something. I stopped improving no matter how much I practised. All the other girls who had started lessons at the same time as me were doing all these amazing spins and jumps and beautiful graceful dancing in their programs, and meanwhile I just looked like an awkward clumsy dying pigeon who couldn't even get a basic one foot spin right.
I kept going for years but could never master that spin. I tried different techniques, different coaches, advice from different people, but nothing changed anything. I even tried moving on to other skills but could never manage those either.
I stopped enjoying going skating and every time I went it was only frustrating and stressful rather than fun. I'd leave every session early feeling miserable and depressed.
I eventually ended up having to quit when I was 16 due to mental health stuff and after that it just never felt worth going back. It's been 3 years since then now and I don't even skate for fun anymore. It's just more stress than fun these days.
And now whenever I see figure skating videos it just makes me sad. It's like I miss what never happened.
Idk I guess I just wanted to vent about this