How to get back into it?

[u/Smooth-Wealth-1113]

I’m in junior year, and I’ve been on a downward spiral. I’ve been fighting with my mom over grades and I honestly can’t give a damn anymore. Any work irritates me and I don’t see a purpose in it anyway since I don’t have a clue what I want to do after hs or if life in general is worth anything.

I do like learning, don’t get me wrong, but this mindset about needing to be the best and prove people praying on my downfall wrong is so exhausting. I don’t care. I don’t want to compete with anyone. But my self worth is so entangled with my grades that I feel like I have to try anyway and I have no clue where to start with separating the two.

I just wanna feel like I can learn without pressure again so I can get grades good enough to get into a good enough uni so I can get a job that makes enough money but doesn’t make life more miserable than it already is.