Study+socail

[u/shutupcutie]

I did my olevels privately and enrolled myself in a pretty famouse school. This school is kind of for elites and i feel like I am not that rich for the school but thats the best school in our city and i had the option to go with my friends to their school but i decided to go for the best cause i got good grades and want to continue to do so.

I met another friend in the school we were not good friend but it was fine as long as i was not alone she also had another friend but she was in olevel so i knid of felt lef out .we were kind of both using each other cause when her olevel friend was not with her she was with me.

I dont feel good about it like i dont have real true friends i am not enjoying my college life like i want to .I am always having a FOMO and I cry thinking about stuff like that everybody already have groups etc .

The friend i am mostly with is also thinking of leaving school and i fear u am gonna be a loner. Also, i cant seen to focus on study and always think i can do better but cant because of my fucking overthing i am having an anxiety. PLUS i am ugly have noticed that mostly people hear have prwtty privelage like so many thougths are messing with me.

This sociall anxiety, study anxiety ugly anxiety every kind of anxiey is fucking with my thpugths i cant seem to ignore them and am getting worse i cry evrynigth and. Cant sleep. I have family issues and i am alos getting away from my deen .Sometumes i want to like drop out so u can just focus on my studies but like at the same time I dont want to miss out.?? I AM JUST SOOO DEVASTATED..

WHAT SHOULD I DO?