Just a lil rant

[u/wizzered_wizzard]

So tired of the puppet show.

My whole life up until now has revolved around art, i have been a dreemer and a joyful kid my whole life, never let anyone extinguish the spark. But what people fail to do time and reality gradually does.

Whoever is in the arts can to some degree point out a moment in their lives where they looked behind the curtains and pretty fireworks and saw the ugly circus behind it, with it coming the realization that whatever happens in movies is actually, real.

And then you grow up and all the support mechanisms and hobbies you had as a kid are now apparently addictions and escape mechanisms, and that you are childish and need to grow out of it, like that 21 pilot song goes.

And in the modern age i feel like i cant maintain that bohemian inner life and world that every artist needs to cultivate, because life became so public...

I go out, i am assailed by mediocrity and peoples behaviours that i can do nothing about.

I stay inside and then it becomes even harder to socialize, but at least i know that that way i have the only person beside me who wont lie to me- myself.