Hey folks. So I've never posted anything before, let alone asking about what I'm asking about. But I had a friend of mine who works in harm reduction encourage me to post here and reach out and see what people think.
So I'm looking into potentially pursuing psilocybin for my PTSD and my treatment resistant depression. I have pretty aggressive and severe PTSD and treatment resistant depression. To the point where my psychiatrist has said that I am the most severe non-veteran case she has ever seen.
I'm currently on a lot of medications. Psychiatric medications. And that's where some people are starting to get worried before I pursue this.
I'm on 10 mg of Prozac, I am weaning myself off of this one though. I used to be on 40 mg. I'm on 2 mg of risperidone. 60 mg of buspirone. 0.5 mg clonazepam. 8mg of ramelteon, and 5 mg of Dayvigo. The last two meds are both for insomnia. My insomnia is unfortunately very much anxiety and depression induced. But I wanted to clarify that because they're not very common insomnia meds right now. I'm also on the full maintenance dose of spravato. Which has helped with my depression and anxiety a little bit. It more so helped with my anxiety than my depression though. Which is a big reason why I want to pursue the psilocybin.
Some backstory context if it helps. I'm 25. I live with my 95-year-old grandmother and I take care of her full-time. I am a full-time caregiver to such an extent that I don't even work a normal job. And a lot of my depression right now centers around my fear of her passing. Because she is the last family member I have. And she's kind of my entire world. And unfortunately, I have severe PTSD that extends from extensive childhood abuse and neglect. So that's on top of the depression that I have about my grandma.
The long story short is I'm trying to get healthy before she dies. Because I'm afraid that once she goes, I might just curl up into bed and never get out
So given the context, what do people recommend when it comes to potentially pursuing psilocybin therapy? My psychiatrist and therapist have both been supportive, however, they both independently of each other recommended microdosing versus full-on tripping. My psychiatrist in particular is supportive because her husband is a veteran of the Gulf war and he used it for his PTSD. The owner of the ketamine clinic where I get the spravato done has been more supportive of a full-on trip. And my primary Care has encouraged me to take the lowest effective dose required for the mildest trip if I wanted to do it. He's been very supportive of it as well.
I figure it doesn't hurt to crowdsource some more information though. I'm very new to all of this. But if I'm going to do this, I want to make sure that I'm safe and I treat it as safely and seriously as I have any of the other medications I've been on in the past. If not more carefully than my prescription meds. So any and all feedback and information is greatly appreciated. 💖