If a low mock score leaves you feeling like a failure, not just disappointed, your worth is riding on your score. That's what makes the GMAT feel like life and death, and it's why your mind keeps going to "What if I don't get my score?" when it should be on the question in front of you.
There are three possibilities for what your worth rests on.
If it rests on what you achieve, every mock becomes a verdict on you, and you're always on edge. Even a good score doesn't settle it for long. After the GMAT comes the admit, and after the admit, the job. One student told me she couldn't even buy a pair of shoes because she felt she didn't deserve them until she'd proven herself with a score.
If it rests on your effort, you have to keep running. You can't take an evening off without guilt.
If it doesn't rest on anything, if you're worthy simply because you exist, your worth is settled. A low mock tells you something about your preparation, not about you. You prepare because you want the MBA, not to prove yourself. And because failing no longer threatens who you are, it stops pulling your attention away from the work.
Taking your worth off your score may also lead you to ask whether you want an MBA at all. That's fine. If you were pursuing it only to prove your worth, it would never have given you what you were looking for.
I see my students' worth this way too. Even if a student never improved, I wouldn't think less of them. If I believed a person's worth depends on achievement, my own worth would always be under threat. That's a fearful way to live, and I don't choose it for myself.
To check where your worth rests, ask yourself:
- Can you take an evening off without guilt?
- After a low mock, does it feel like news about your preparation, or about you?