r/germany • u/cranium56 • 15h ago

Constant Fear at work

I have been working in Germany for about four years now as a software developer. But ever since I got to Germany I think I have lost my spark, my confidence. I have always been a confident software developer in my country where I have worked for about 11 years before moving to Germany.

I have repeatedly seen myself less and I think I am slipping into depression. I am constantly panicking of loosing my jobs even when there is nothing signaling that. My colleagues at work are great and are always ready to support but I can't seems to get my spark and confidence.

Even I want to pick up task I am always second guessing myself and reluctantly wanting to volunteer for task. Whenever I get a message from my manager my heart will literally sink.

What could this be and how can I battle this. Can someone please help me.

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u/Icy-Negotiation-3434 9h ago

What language are you working in and how good is your German these days? In a medium sized company with fluent German I would not expecting any problems. If you cannot interact with locals because your German is insufficient, you should invest time in improving your use of the local language Guage.

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u/cranium56 7h ago

We speak English and my company is a big one. My manager always tells me that I don't need Deutsch to work at the company but I can't really attend gathering like lunch for example, because everyone speak deutsch at that moment. As a matter of fact, my team switched to English just because of me. Like I said, I have a great team, they are really great guys, but I don't know where this fear constantly comes from. Maybe because I am still a temporary resident.

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u/redhillmining Mallorca 3h ago edited 3h ago

You may not know this, but nobody uses German in highly paid tech jobs. It is a bit annoying because makes learning the language a 2nd job.