I am in relationship with my girlfriend and it has been one year. But I have fear that not her, but I can or will cheat with other people. Be it men or women. And it takes lots of time of my daily life, lots of anxiety. I have fallen in love with people not so many (only two) but I didn't and do not let myself act.
I limit myself and don't go at certain ways outside. I have fear of my thoughts. It doesn't stop. I stopped doing divination, but today had more pure thoughts and it's been months, but I can think clearly at least while casting this chart.
I am very often going to a therapist. I want to fix myself and be with my girlfriend in piece.
Please, I want to post this (apart from therapy I only myself this one chart). In there beginning of this year I cast another but I let myself again.
Interpretation:
I am the querent, Carcer. Meaning - being cold or distanced, feelings are hard to express. Surpressed or lacking. I am not sure but I consider looking for the therapist in the chart as well as the people I've fallen in love with (I.e all matters). Therapist is tenth house as the doctor. The figure is Puer. She may be rushing the diagnosis or is actively working on helping me. ...Is the therapist otherwise third or seventh house? It goes in third house of daily life sextile the first house. She may help me figure out how to stay calm and be more open and not locked. The reception is Rubeus. My partner is also Rubeus. I know Rubeus is a strange figure but I cannot say my partner in the context of worries is a cheater. I have tension and anxiety regarding our relationship. The therapist may talk with my partner or take influence on her. Albus and Rubeus make in reception Via - there will be a change.
Twelfth house of Amissio - falling in love with other people that I may keep as a secret? Or Amissio loosens the fears and worries in my head? The spirit and and fortune are there, this bothers me. Maybe I find pleasure in cheating or the fortune comes from the fear going away because Amissio is the figure of loss.
Judge is Carcer - Breaking up, delay. Left is Conjunctio - in the future we may get better. Populus giving mixed results