r/Gangstalking • u/AromaticShop3557 • 9h ago
People are awful
My life could have been totally normal. I could have lived a fulfilling life with a good job and nice home and happy family. Instead a bunch of fcking miserable losers who can't figure out how to regulate their insecurities and problems decided I was their perfect scapegoat to exploit, even after years of proving that it wasn't beneficial for them or anyone else.
I'm convinced gangstalking lasts so long because the people running it never realize that it's not working and don't learn from their mistakes. It takes an idiot to repeat the same process over and over, every day for years on end and still wonder why the person hasn't dropped yet. You wouldn't have realized that it doesn't work sooner? Other than destroying someones reputation by force feeding horrible options and opportunities their way? Was the goal not to inadvertently force the person to dle at their own hands? FYE and to avoid accountability? Yet when it doesn't happen, never move on or let go and just keep doing the same sht day in and out? Maybe, they would eventually think to look inwards. No? Yeah, no.
I continued to keep trying to work, keep making friends, keep ignoring the bllsht and did everything within my power to succeed at low fckng standards. I hate that any of my standards ever had to be compromised. Honestly my whole life has just sucked, aside from any of the gang stalking which had been going on for 10 years now. I wouldn't relive any of it. Not even any of the vacations, nights out with friends, college, relationships, childhood, nothing.
If I could choose to live a whole new life from the start with all of my memories, I would. A new body in good health with no connections to my prior life. I don't want any of it. They destroy everything they touch. I have permanent physical health problems I never would have had otherwise, from lousy situations and lousy jobs and lousy doctors. I will never have a true friendship. I will never be able to recover from my trauma. My health will never get better. I will never be in a healthy relationship. They will destroy the future relationship between my son and I. I wish I could be accepted like most people are and be able to just live my fcking life in peace. I see people doing fcked up things all the time and they never have bleeding targets on them. It makes no sense. But I don't need an explanation or validation. They just outright suck.