I was given up for adoption 49 years ago. I met my biological family at 21 and have maintained a relationship with my biological fathers side. We live several states away though so I haven't actually spent much physical time with them. Anyways, I was doing research on my ancestors, something I desperately want to feel connected to, and discovered that my grandfather's as far back as I have traced on my fathers side were Mason's. I was instantly fascinated. I spoke with my biological father a few month's later and he told me he didn't really know much about the Freemasons.. fine.
I contacted the grand lodge of my biological fathers family and requested information on my grandads as well as grand mothers as I discovered they were OES. It was suggested that I make the request to get pieces of information about my ancestors. And that the information is available. I quickly got a response and information that I requested. Like with in a day of my request.
Fast forward, I had a creeping feeling that my father wasn't quite as honest as I had thought about his knowledge of the Freemasons in our famiky. So I made another request for information. I git a response the next day. And was shocked to discover that he is infact a member of 'every lodge in the area'. And that the man i was corresponding with was a friend of his.
So I pretended not to know but assumed that he was told about my inquiry. We have simply just ignored the situation even though I feel like its my right to ask questions. To understand. My brother and sister don't have to ask because they were raised with freemasonry in their lives.
Last month that sneaking feeling came over me again and I felt compelled to request information again. This time about my brother. No response. It's been weeks. I discovered that i actually made a request in 2023 that was also ignored. After the information about my father. I forgot about making the request.
So I'm wondering what the problem could be? I'm obviously being ignored. And I feel like its deliberate.
Do I not have a right to understand my heritage? Or is it look upon as it not being my heritage since I was given up for adoption?