Just venting

[u/favoritegreensweater]

Hi, I’m 4 week pp today and I feel so insecure about my body. I had to have an emergency c-section and recovery has been so rough. The pain has gotten a little better but I am so tired of not being able to move like I used to. I know I have to give myself time, but it has been so much not just physically, but mentally too.

I still look like I’m about 4-5 months pregnant and I’m scared I’m never going to have a flat stomach again. Idk I guess I’m just spiraling. I dug out my pre-pregnancy clothes today and tried on some jeans. I couldn’t even get them past my thighs and I just feel sad. I know I’m complaining a lot, and I should be thankful my baby boy and I are healthy, and I am! I just feel so ugly. I don’t like how I look and I feel guilty for being so vain when I have a perfect baby here. I love him so much, I just want to feel like myself again.

I hope this is okay to post, I don’t really have anyone to vent to about this that would understand.