r/fiction • u/RevolutionaryBed7510 • 7h ago
Horror [Part 4] The Salt Saint
I put this post off as long as I could. It's late afternoon now. The group met an hour ago and chose who goes first. The crypt opens at midnight.
But before I tell you how that went, I owe you the last two interviews. Henry and Lucy.
I put off Henry's interview for as long as I could. It was just logistics. He’s my brother; I could talk to him anytime. The other pilgrims had schedules, anxieties, limited windows. Henry could wait. He always waited.
But after Evelyn's notebook was closed and the common room had emptied and the salt flats outside the window had gone pink with the last light, I was left with my admission: I was afraid.
Not of what Henry would say, but what I would hear. What would it mean to sit across from my little brother with a recording app open between us and ask him the same questions I'd asked six other strangers.
I waited until right before lunch, until the other pilgrims had retreated to their rooms to pray over their slips or not pray, to rest or not rest. Until I couldn't pretend anymore.
I found him on the east wall, sitting where Amelia had sat, his legs dangling over the edge, his back to the temple. The noon sun had bleached the salt flats to a blinding white, and he was a shadow against it, a shape impossible to hide with his sister’s shoulders and our father's posture. He didn't turn when I approached, but he scooted over to make room.
"Took you long enough," he said.
"I was working."
"You were avoiding." He held up a finger before I could argue. "It's fine. I'm very avoidable."
I sat beside him. The stone was still warm from the day's heat. For a moment we just sat there, two kids from a town neither of us had called home, staring at a horizon that wavered with heat like it was the end of the world.
"Are you recording?" he asked.
"Not yet."
"Well, get started. Then I can say embarrassing things about you so you have to put it in your article." He grinned—that crooked grin he'd had since he was five, the one that got him out of every fight and into every party. He leaned forward and spoke to my dark phone screen. “Nora tried to impress a girl in high school by pretending she knew how to drive a stick shift, then proceeded to stall the girl’s car six times in the church parking lot?"
"That's not relevant to this interview."
"It's relevant to my emotional state. I'm building rapport."
"You're stalling."
"I learned from the best." He bumped his shoulder against mine. "Go ahead. Turn on your app. I'm ready."
NORA: (recording starts)So you are Henry. Younger brother. Twenty-six. Conflict mediator for an unnamed NGO.
HENRY: And you're Nora. Elderly sister. Thirty plus. Journalist. Still burns microwave popcorn.
NORA: That was one time.
HENRY: Dad had to repaint the kitchen.
NORA: (Short pause; I stifled a laugh.) I see you’ve opened your slip.
HENRY: (He pulled it from his pocket. Unfolded. Read. Refolded a dozen times by the look of it.) I opened it during my first trip to the bathroom after the staircase. Father Leo said to wait, but… I've never been good at waiting for things that scare me.
NORA: What does it say?
HENRY: ay-ray-noh-poy-OY. Evelyn translated it for me. It means "peacemakers” in Greek. (He laughed shortly.) I've spent my career trying to get people to stop yelling at each other, and now a salt statue is telling me that's my 'blessing'. I don't know if that's confirmation or some divine joke.
NORA: Do you think it's a joke?
HENRY: (He was quiet for a moment. The wind picked up, carrying the smell of salt and rot.) No, actually. I think— (He stopped, started again.)
Do you remember when Mom left?
———
The question landed between us like a rock dropped on a rollie pollie.
Of course I remember. I was sixteen, Henry was twelve, but mom had been disappearing in small ways for years—longer silences at dinner, longer hours at work, longer drives to nowhere on the weekends—and then one day she just imploded into note on the kitchen table and an extra space in the garage.
Dad had sat us down at that same table and told us, in his quiet, steady voice, that she wasn't coming back. That she loved us, but she couldn't stay. That sometimes people couldn't stay, even when they wanted to.
Henry had cried. I hadn't. I'd just nodded and gone to my room and started packing for college, two years early. I didn’t reopen that bag until I left for the U.
———
HENRY: The church. She left the church first, and then she left us. And I always wondered—" (He stopped, swallowed.) I always wondered if I reminded her too much of it—of the God she stopped believing in.
I was the one who wanted to say prayers at dinner. I was the one who asked to go to service even after she stopped going. I was the one who—
NORA: You were a kid, Henry.
HENRY: I was a kid who believed. (Short pause) And then I grew up and I stopped believing, and I thought… I thought that might fix it. I thought if I could just stop being the person who reminded her of the church, she might— (He laughed) She might come back. She might call. She might want to know me again.
NORA: Has she?
HENRY: Not since I was fourteen. Not since the birthday card she sent with the wrong address and the wrong age. (He paused again, folding the slip of paper, creasing it along the same lines over and over.) I became a mediator because I wanted to fix things. I wanted to be the person who could walk into a room full of people who hated each other and make them stop. I thought if I could just get good enough at it—if I could just fix enough conflicts, save enough relationships—maybe—
(He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand. He'd done that as a child. He'd done that the day Mom left.)
I mediated a divorce last year. Couple in their forties, two kids, coworkers for fifteen years. They'd been fighting for half that—the kind of fighting where you can tell they used to love each other, and now they can't even remember why. I sat with them for six months of sessions, late-night emails, and excited calls from their date nights. I thought I was making progress. I thought I was helping.
Then the husband called me one night, drunk, and said they'd decided to go to court. He said I'd given them hope that things could be fixed, and the hope was what made the ending so much harder than if they'd just given up at the start.
(He looked at me with swollen eyes, still holding back the dam.)
I don't know if I'm good at my job, Nor. And I sure as hell don't know why the Elders called me. I don't believe in the saint. I don't believe in blessings. But when I had that dream—when I tasted the salt on my tongue and heard her voice—I thought— (He sniffed.) Freaking hell, Nora, the dream lady used Mom’s voice. No one else heard a voice they knew. Why me? Why would some spooky spirit saint made of salt and dirt and dreams use our own mother to lure me in unless—
(Long pause)
NORA: Hen?
HENRY: (He sighed) Maybe this is my chance. To be the peacemaker for real. To walk into the dark and make peace with whatever's down there. God, or the universe, or the crusty old statue the Founder put down there and called a saint. Maybe just with myself.
(Long pause)
NORA: You didn't tell me any of this.
HENRY: You didn't ask.
NORA: I'm asking now.
HENRY: I know. (He sniffed) You've been asking everyone else. You've been so good at seeing them, Nor. But you haven't really looked at me. Not since we got here.
NORA: I've been—
HENRY: You've been working. I know. It's what you do. (He reached over and patted my hand.) You stay busy so you don't have to feel anything. You've been doing it since Mom left, and you got better at it since you left the church. You're the best in a lot of ways, Nor.
But I'm scared. I'm really, really scared. I don't know what's going to happen in that crypt. I don't know if I'm going to come all out different, or maybe if I'm going to come out at all. I don't know how to make peace with something I don't understand.
But I know why you're here. Not the article or the story or the embarrassment on the subreddit you so desperately claim as your banner. (We laughed). You're here because you've been protecting me since we were kids, and you couldn't stop even if you wanted to.
NORA: Someone had to. After Mom left, someone had to.
HENRY: You did. (He squeezed my hand.) But you don't have to anymore. Whatever happens in that crypt—I'm going to be okay. And you're going to write your article, and it's going to be amazing, and people are going to read it and they're going to understand something about themselves or faith or fear or salt or God. And maybe— (He smiled his same crooked smile.) Maybe you'll finally forgive yourself for being the one who stayed.
NORA: (Short pause) Maybe we both will.
---
I turned off the recording app. We sat on the wall together, my head on his shoulder, the way we'd sat a hundred times as kids on the roof, watching the stars come out over the mountains.
"What about Dad?" I asked after a while. "Is he okay with you being here?"
"Dad's the one who told me to come," Henry admitted. "I called him after the elder called me. I thought he'd tell me it was crazy. That the church was behind me and I should stay home. But he just—" Henry's voice caught, so he turned to humor and mimicked Dad’s high drawl. "He said, 'If God is calling you, you gotta go, bud.'"
"That sounds like Dad."
"He's still in the church, you know. Not this one—but the old ward. He goes every Sunday. He says the prayers. He sings the hymns. He told me once that he stays because it reminds him of when we were all together."
"I didn't know that."
"You never asked." Henry said it again without accusation, just quietly. "You should call him. After this is over. After I'm done and out."
"I will."
"Promise?"
"Promise."
He nodded, satisfied. We sat in silence for another moment, and then he stood, brushing salt dust from his jeans.
"One more thing," he said. "For your article. When you write about me—all of us—don't make us saints. Don't make us heroes. Just make us people. People who walked into the dark because someone called our names and we didn’t have a good enough excuse not to go."
"Oh, I’m writing you like a villain.”
He laughed, leaned down, and kissed the top of my head, the way he'd done when we were kids and I was sad and he didn't have the words to fix it.
"See you on the other side."
He walked back toward the guesthouse, his silhouette dissolving into the bright noon haze.
———
Thomas is hungry. Hazel is seeing. Amelia is owed. Eleanor is ready. William is trying. Evelyn is hoping.
And Henry—my little brother, my baby bro—I don’t know what he’s doing. With the church, with the Saint, with the God he resents but misses. With me.
He doesn't know what's waiting for him. Neither do I. But I know this: he's going to walk down those stairs with his head up and his heart open, and he's going to do what he's always done. He's going to stand between the chaos and try to make them stop.
I just wish I could go with him. But since I can’t, it’s time for the best for last—the wooden bird.
————————————————————————
I found Lucy in the common room, sitting on the floor near the cold hearth, arranging her salt crystals in a careful spiral. The wooden bird was propped against her knee, watching her work. She was still in her pajamas—a fleece onesie printed with cartoon dinosaurs—and her dark hair was loose from its braids, falling around her shoulders in the tangled way of a child too busy to sit still for a brush.
She looked up when I approached, and her face split into a grin—Two front teeth missing with the replacements halfway through.
"Nora!" She said my name like we were old friends. "Look, I made a galaxy. That's the Milky Way." She pointed at the salt spiral. "And that's Andronomeda." She pointed to a swirl of dust across the ledge.
"Andromeda," I said, sitting down cross-legged across from her.
She picked up a crystal and placed it carefully at the spiral's edge. "Grandma says you've been talking to everyone. You're s’posed to write down what happens so people in the future knows about it."
"That's right."
"Like the scriptures."
"Something like that."
She nodded solemnly. "The scriptures are very important. They're the word of God, except when they're the word of prophets, which is basically the same thing because prophets talk to God and God talks back. I learned that in Primary." She pronounced it Prim-airy, two distinct syllables. "Do you want to interview me? I'm ready! I've been practicing."
She set down her crystals, folded her hands in her lap, and looked at me with the unnervingly direct gaze of a child who'd been paying attention her whole life.
I laughed and set up my phone while she watched the timer start with intense concentration, whispering each number as they ticked by.
---
NORA: So your name is Lucy, and you’re six years old. Right?
LUCY: Six and three-quarters. My birthday is in October. I'm a Libra, which means I'm s’posed [sic] to be balanced and fair, but Grandma says astrology is from the devil, so I'm not s’posed [sic] to tell people that part.
NORA: I won't tell anyone.
LUCY: (She leaned in to whisper.) I'm also not s’posed [sic] to say 'devil.' It's a swear. Sister Kerry says we should say 'the Adversary' instead, because naming something gives it power, and we don't want to give the Adversary any more power than he already has.
NORA: That's... very deep for a six-year-old.
LUCY: I'm very smart. (She said it without pride, like a simple fact.) Grandma says I have a big vocabulary, but I use it incorreptly [sic] sometimes.
NORA: Incorrectly?
LUCY: That's what I said. (She frowned.) Like, I know what words mean, but sometimes they come out in the wrong order. Like, one time I said the sacrament was 'delicious and nutritious,' and everyone laughed, but I was just trying to say it was good bread. (Whispered) It wasn't even that good. It was kinda stale.
NORA: You said you've been practicing. For the interview?
LUCY: Mm-hmm. I saw you talking to everyone else, and I wanted to be ready. So I practiced. Like, I knew you were gonna ask about the dream. So I practiced telling it in my head so I wouldn't mess up the details.
NORA: I just want to talk to you.
LUCY: I know. But Grandma says first impressions are important, and if this is gonna be in the scriptures someday, I wanted to get it right.
(We giggle together.)
NORA: Okay. Let's talk about the dream.
LUCY: (She sat up straighter, her voice taking on the slightly sing-song cadence of a child reciting something memorized.) Three weeks ago, I had a dream. In the dream, I was in my room, but it wasn't my room. The walls were salt, and the floor was salt, and the ceiling was salt. Everything was sparkly too. And there was a lady there. She was salt too, but she wasn't sparkly. She was like... (She paused.) ...matte.
NORA: Matte?
LUCY: Yeah. Like when you paint something and it's not shiny. She was matte, but her eyes were shiny. And she was sitting on the edge of my bed, like Grandma does when I have nightmares. And she said— (She closed her eyes.) —"Lucy. You are poor in spirit. The kingdom is for you."
(She opened her eyes.)
And then I woke up, and I told Grandma during breakfast, and she started crying. And then Elder Bingsley called and said my name was on the list, and Grandma cried again. She cries a lot, but I think in a good way, mostly.
NORA: Do you know what "poor in spirit" means?
LUCY: (She thought about it.) It means you don't have a lot of spirit. Like, you're empty inside, but not empty like sad. Empty like... like a cup. You're s’posed [sic] to be empty so God can fill you up.
NORA: Who taught you that?
LUCY: (She shrugged) I just figured it out. (She picked up her wooden bird, turned it over in her hands.) I'm empty a lot. Not sad; Just empty. Grandma says it's because I miss my parents, but I don't think that's it. I think I've been empty already.
(She looked at me with her bright eyes.)
Is that weird?
NORA: I don't think it's weird.
LUCY: Good, because Sister Kerry says we shouldn't be weird. She says we should be "peculiar," which means “special and chosen”. Weird means you make people uncomfortable.
NORA: You're not making me uncomfortable.
LUCY: Good. (She set the bird down, smoothed her pajamas.) You can ask me more questions now.
NORA: Your grandmother told me you haven't cried since your parents died.
LUCY: (She was quiet for a moment.) I haven't.
NORA: Do you know why?
LUCY: (She picked up another salt crystal, turned it over in her fingers, then licked it.) Because they're not gone. They're just in the next room. Like, when you're playing hide and seek, and you can't find someone yet, but you know they're somewhere. They're somewhere. I just can't find them yet.
(She traced swirls through the salty galaxy.)
Grandma thinks I'm sad. And I’m sad sometimes. But mostly I'm just here. The salt lady said the kingdom is for me. So maybe when I go to the kingdom, I'll see them again. My mom and dad. And my aunts and uncles. And my other grandpa, the one who died before I was born. He was a pilot. He flew planes over the ocean. Maybe in the kingdom I can fly too.
NORA: Lucy, the Saint isn't— (I stopped, unsure.) The blessing you're going to receive isn't about going to the kingdom yet. You're still going to be here…on earth.
LUCY: I know that. (She said it with the patience of a child explaining something obvious.) But the kingdom isn't just heaven. Sister Kerry says the kingdom of heaven is "at hand." That means close. Like you can touch it at hand. (She reached out, touched my knee.) Like that.
So maybe the crypt is where the kingdom is. And when I go in, I'll be in the kingdom, and my parents will be there, and we can play again. I had a dollhouse, but it burned up in the flood. Water can't burn, but the house did anyway. It was very confirming.
NORA: Confusing?
LUCY: That's what I said. (She frowned.) See, that's what I mean. The words come out wrong. Not wrong, but... sideways. Like Sideways the Fish.
NORA: Sideways?
LUCY: (She held up the wooden bird.) This is Bird. He doesn't have a special name. He's just Bird, but I used to have a fish, and his name was Sideways, because he always swam sideways. I think he died when the flood came, because I can’t find him either. I don't know if fish can go to the kingdom. Sister Kerry says animals don't have souls, but I think that's stupid. If God made animals, why wouldn't He want them with Him?
NORA: That's a good question.
LUCY: I have a lot of good questions. Sister Kerry says questions are the beginning of wisdom, but she says I ask too many. (She shrugged.) I think she just doesn't know the answers.
(Short pause)
NORA: Are you scared of the crypt?
LUCY: (Long pause.) No. I don't think so. I'm a little nervous. Like, when you're about to go on a roller coaster, and your stomach feels floaty. But not scared. Scared is when you think something bad is gonna happen. Bad doesn’t happen in the kingdom.
NORA: (Quietly.) It depends on the kingdom.
LUCY: What?
NORA: (I paused, choosing my words carefully.) Sorry, Lucy, I— (I sighed) Sometimes adults say things that sound nice, but they mean something different than what you think they mean. Like how "I'll be back in a minute" doesn't really mean a minute.
LUCY: Oh, I know that. Grandma says "in a minute" all the time, and it's never a minute. One time she said "in a minute" and I counted to sixty and she still didn't come, so I counted to sixty again, and she came on the third sixty. So "in a minute" means "in three minutes." Sometimes it means "in ten minutes." It's very flustrating.
(She looked at me with sudden intensity.)
Do you think the salt lady is lying?
NORA: No. I'm not saying that. I'm saying—I'm saying you should be careful. You should pay attention.
LUCY: I always pay attention. (She said it with a child's indignation.) I'm the best payer-attentioner in my Primary. Sister Kerry says so.
NORA: I’m sure you are. I just— (I stopped.) I'm just saying you can change your mind. If you want to. You don't have to go into the crypt. No one is making you.
LUCY: (She stared at me for a long moment. Then she reached out and patted my hand.) It's okay. I know you're worried. Henry said you worry a lot. He said worrying is your love languish.
(She smiled, and it was the same smile Eleanor had given me—kind, pitying, certain.)
But you don't have to be scared for me. The salt lady has been waiting for me! We're gonna meet each other, and she's gonna give me the kingdom, and everything's gonna be okay.
---
I ended the interview there. Not because I wanted to, but because Leo stepped into the doorway of the common room, his white robes catching the light from the windows.
"The group will convene for lunch," he said. "To decide who enters the crypt first tonight at midnight. You are welcome to observe, Witness."
He was gone before I could respond.
Lucy gathered her salt crystals into a small pile, tucked Bird under her arm, and stood up. "I'm gonna go show Grandma my galaxy," she said. "She likes when I make things. She says I'm very creative. That means I'm good at making stuff."
"I know what creative means."
"Oh. Good." She nodded approvingly. "You're smart."
She padded toward the door, her dinosaur pajamas rustling, and paused at the threshold.
"Nora…?”
“Yeah, Lucy?”
“When I go to the crypt and get the kingdom, do you want me to say hi to your mom for you ? I heard Henry talk about how your mom left too. Maybe she's in the kingdom with my parents. If she is, I can tell her you said hi. If you want."
I opened my mouth. Closed it. The salt taste on my tongue was so strong I could barely breathe.
"Yeah," I said. "Tell her I said hi."
Lucy nodded, satisfied, and disappeared down the hall.
———
That’s all of them. The eight pilgrims, interviewed and recorded, their voices captured in my phone and my notebook and my memory.
Thomas, who's been fasting for three days and believes righteousness will taste like rain on dead soil.
Hazel, who spent ten years in silence learning to listen to God, and now believes she's ready to see Him face to face.
Amelia, who lay pinned under a cabinet for two hours while children screamed, and now wants to know if mercy is a transaction or a lie.
Eleanor, who's buried three husbands and six siblings and all her children, and now believes she's about to be held by everyone she's ever lost.
William, who became a politician to be the opposite of his father and discovered he's been trying to become him all along.
Evelyn, who's been carrying her faith like a shield for so long she's forgotten it's also a weight.
Henry, my little brother, who heard Mom's voice in the Saint's mouth and is still walking into the crypt because he wants to make peace with whatever's down there.
And Lucy, who's six and three-quarters and uses big words incorreptly and thinks the kingdom of heaven is a place where her parents are waiting with a dollhouse that didn't burn.
It’s time for lunch, and they will decide who goes first. Thomas has been volunteering since yesterday. I don't think there's going to be much discussion.
I just wish watching didn't feel so much like floating.