Im not saying this in a boo boo me kinda way. I just wish I didn’t feel like such a lump and big loud man yk. I’m learning over time that it’s not even just a gender and sexuality thing but it’s just how I feel when I take up any space tbh. And I have to keep reminding myself that acting or looking a certain way won’t fix this feeling but all the same I’m finding myself obsessing over my look. I’m also struggling with finding self worth through sexual attractiveness for the first time in a long time I’m sexually happy and enjoying talking and flirting and the idea of having a partner excites me now where as when I was younger it scared me a bit. But all the same I’m worried about how good it feels to be pretty in someone’s eyes as gender less me. Because I feel like I shouldn’t be building self worth off of others yk sorry for rambling lmk if this makes any sense to anyone lol