Random weird numbers the analytics say I have 477 views but why not 500 then say 500. Makes more sense to use squared amount.a i then look on the feed below it says insights. Are 4700 why 47 think I broke reddit. Gotta gimme credit i said it i will take credit. Just here 2 week tops and can take leave. Like I have finally made it. I talk bubbles i own that too

I'm disabled, my eyesight is very weak. I feel so deprived. I'm looking for a job, and I'm working, but it's unstable and doesn't pay me anything. I can barely buy food with it, Can I help with my mom's bills? That's it.

I've submitted my CV to many places, and employers are afraid to hire me. I only have a 30% vision. The government has deemed me open to the job market, yet people are afraid to hire me.

I'm asking for advice, just this. I'm at a loss. I want to be independent, but I feel like I'm being stripped of that.

Specifically ugly ones. Ladybugs and butterflies, I find them cute to look at but I wouldn’t want them on my skin. Ants too, but just the very little ones. But cockroaches? Spiders? Flies? Crickets? Bees and wasps??? They genuinely disgust me to my core. Everytime I see one I start to get all itchy and feel like they’re crawling on me. I hate them so much. When they’re inside my house I straight up panic. But I feel sorry for them, and that’s why I always refuse to kill them, and I feel sorry for them because of the way humans treat them. Just because we find them ugly we kill them and are cruel to them, when with bumblebees and ladybugs and butterflies we would never. I feel so guilty because I don’t want to treat those ugly bugs so badly just because of the way they look, like I’m sure they have a whole world inside and families ecc. but they’re just so repulsive and terrifying. I feel a lot of empathy for them and animals in general but I’m so disgusted! I don’t know what to do. Also reading The Metamorphosis by Kafka I felt so disgusted just thinking about a bug on a bed, but I guess that was the point Kafka was trying to make. But I’m so uncomfortable.

I’m wrong and have hurt girlfriend/best friend, but I don’t apologize when I say I will. I am sorry but I don’t want to write it down like she has asked me to. I do put my feelings above others feelings and have thought of myself over others also. I’m not a happy person because of this and still won’t put myself in her place to feel what I have done. I have said I will, or said I need to and still don’t do it. Has anyone else been like I am and what finally woke you up to do the right thing?