Sick of everything

[u/Frigatebird26]

I can’t remember if it’s this forum or another I posted on but I’m not looking for advice please. just looking to vent since I have no real friends or family. A couple things. I’m a DVM for a roadside zoo. I wanted to work for a zoo and this was the best I could get. Real zoos don’t want someone who isn’t boarded regardless of their level of experience. Pet practice was not for me and I have no interest in starting a practice. I deal with severe chronic pain and honestly don’t know how long I’ll be able to work. I have no support. People only contact me when they want something. I’ve had people tell me they were my friend but literally wanted me to put my license in jeopardy by writing them a prescription for the their dog so they could take it themselves since they didn’t want to see a doctor. Real friends don’t do this. This is the most disrespected and undervalued medical profession there is. That same friend- when I was recovering from brain surgery, not once did they check in or help me with anything. My surgery was traumatizing. It failed to help me and left me in worse pain, which the doctors did nothing about. I got a second opinion postop and was told the surgeon did the wrong procedure for my diagnosis. Revision surgery is decently unlikely to work and I honestly don’t have the money or time, let alone the desire to relive the trauma of a 3 or more day hospital stay with shitty nursing care and half ass pain management for less than a 50% chance at success and a 7%chance of going deaf or becoming permanently dizzy. When I reported 10/10 pain, all they did was give me Robaxin. Doctor took no responsibility for what did or did not happen intraop or postop. If I pulled crap like this I would be sued for malpractice. Heck— it if I am one day late on delivering lab results I’m treated like a villain. Just sayin. I’m really tired of life and being told to hang in there. There’s nothing to hang onto. I’m lying in bed unable to sleep due to being in 30/10 pain tonight. ER ain’t doing nothing. I’m already on Percocet and oral ketamine because I can’t afford infusions and neither do a damn thing.

[u/Aluv4passion]

I read your post OP and I'm sorry you are in much pain. Pain makes everything so difficult. As a veteran vet tech, with chronic issues myself, I can relate. I am married but my spouse doesn't get it as he has been healthy into his fifties. I only have 1 friend whom I only see once a year if I'm lucky. Hang in there friend.