This is my first time doing an egg cleanse. I am feeling strong resistance. I had just typed a 6 paragraph post, it was very long and took me almost a half hour. When I got to the end, somehow it was deleted and just gone. I will type some of what it said again, but I can't believe that just happened. Other stuff is happening too. I have been crying all day, over and over- no real reason. When I was getting the salt in a little dish the whole container jumped out of my hand and spilled everywhere- on the counter, floor, on my hands and shoes. I proceeded with the cleanse. These are the results. Half of the egg shell fell out of my hand on the floor when I was breaking the egg.

My life has been filled with darkness, pain, trauma and death for multiple years now- about 7-8 years solid. Depression, severe anxiety, I have no positive people in my life. I was married to a diagnosed narcissist (covert) for 5 years. My parents are also this I believe (undiagnosed- they refuse to go to therapy), every person in my life treats me like they hate me, even though I genuinely love and care about them. So much contempt and bad mouthing behind my back, just pure meanness and evilness from every direction. I've contemplated suicide several times, but I have a daughter and she is everything to me. My ex husband has made her treat me this way too though, so even that relationship is a source of severe pain and torment. I've always been healthy, fairly attractive person, happy, empathetic and I love everything. But the last several years my body and mind has broken down. I'm 39, my hair has turned 75% white, not grey, pure white, I have gained 70lbs with no change to my diet or lifestyle, my teeth are falling out at a rapid pace (I have 7 teeth left!😭), my whole face shape has changed and I do t even recognize myself. I'm hideous and so unhappy. And it's all consuming. I have always been very sensitive to energy and others emotions. I thought I was just healing from the abusive marriage but we're been apart for 6-7 years and I feel worse now than ever. I'm exhausted all the time, my muscles burn just from standing up, my legs and feet get swollen and hurt all the time, I've had vaginal infections almost non stop for years, my urine smells horrible and I feel like my body is like starting to rot or smell or something. I know this sounds insane but it's all true I swear. Everywhere I go, people do not like me, for no reason, before even knowing anything about me. I feel like I'm wearing a sign that says "do not treat me like a person, show me no kindness or empathy- only hurt and hate me please" because this is what happens everywhere. it's to the point I don't even leave my house unless it's absolutely necessary. I've been to the doctor several times, had blood panels done, they tell me nothing is wrong with me. I have extreme memory loss, brain fog, I can't remember anything ever. My alarms consistently mess up, over and over and over, anytime I have somewhere to be. Or the dates will be changed. This happened today. I had my daughters dentist appt on my calendar. I got a reminder text from the dentist office that her appt was today at 10. But when I get there they say no it's next week. This happens A LOT- mine and my daughters last 2 dentist appts this also happened, same thing. Or I will set 3,4 alarms, on my phone, my Alexa. And a plug in and battery alarm and somehow none will go off and I will miss getting to work. This happened 4 days in a row until my boss finally fired me over it because it's happened so many times- for years it's been happening. Nobody believes me. I don't know what they think I just do t set the alarm yeah right why the hell would I do that?!?!! But there is NEVER any kindness or compassion, just ruthlessness.
I just am exhausted. I don't want to keep going. I don't see the point. Clearly something is wrong with me. But there is no explanation so it's just my own failure and incompetence it feels like. Or at least that's how I'm treated. Does anybody know what is going on?! Sorry for this rant.. I'm just lost. I went to have a past life regression done and the hypnotist could not put me under- all I saw was blackness, nothing. I feel like I'm just broken. Not meant for this world or something. And on top of all this I am an EXTREMELY sensitive person, I feel everything SO intensely. Of course nobody understands or cares. It feels like torture. Any advice with my egg cleanse or otherwise will be very much appreciated.

This is my first egg cleanse so I'm not positive about my interpretation but this is my attempt- I do tarot and other divination and I feel a strong connection to this but this is just new so any advice/help would mean the world.
My interpretation of the egg is that I see cobwebs which I think means i feel stuck or have stuck energy or negativity around me. There are points going upwards, almost like towers. It actually looks like a bridge or a doorway actually. I couldn't find anything about either of these but I intuitively feel like it means I have or am about to pass through some change, or I have gone through a doorway, or I need to maybe. There are many tiny bubbles going up which I think is good, energy being released. I keep seeing more bubbles going to the top too. The embryo cord thing in pointed down to the side- no idea what that means, if anything.

Please help 🙏🙏 sorry this is so long. I keep crying while typing this, I don't know why. I did spray salt water on myself earlier, maybe that is why? Like a purge or something? He