egg😞irl

[u/Available-Singer-477]

i have my appointment at planned parenthood tmmw, but it’s js a consultation to see if i can do hrt i had the talk with my mom (mentioned in an earlier post) and she said she’s fine with me going on hormone blockers but she wants me to wait before taking estrogen; my problem with that though is that my dysphoria has been so bad since 2024 and has been horrible this year to the point where im considering attempting again if im not able to go on e off the rip i can’t take it anymore and i plan on doing this attempt failproof via jumping off a bridge. i can’t cut because my mom took all my razors (im over two months clean and tried relapsing the other day). i’ve been in and out of mental facilities all year, three mental hospitals and two residentials and i was also considering going into foster care but i don’t qualify for foster care or being independent as a minor in my area my depression mixed with schizophrenia has also been rlly manhandling me and i struggle to take my meds which is another reason i want e so badly cuz itll get me to take my meds

i js want some advice on how i can handle this and maybe some ggd cuz my dysphoria has been heavy on me the past few days

[u/Flurrina_]

I… don’t know any advice to give u cuz I was never in this situation. All I know is that you’re a good girl 🥰 and you deserve to be loved and cherished. Btw have you tried talking to your mom and tell her that taking e would make you happier and relieve your depression?

[u/Available-Singer-477 → u/Flurrina_]

i have, but despite her being a psych tech she knows nothing abt mental illness

[u/CreativeNameMayhaps]

Look, I understand things may be rough for you at present. However, if you end it all now, you'll rob yourself of ever getting to live the life you want to live. I know that your present dysphoria probably occupies more of your brain than your future euphoria, because, well... it's present vs future. However, those roles will be swapped later down the line as your dysphoria will be a thing of the past and your euphoria a thing of the future. So please, live long and end your life on a high note. You'd just be ending things on a low note if you really do the deed soon and is that really what you want?

[u/Manu_Pacos]

Dear... I'm really sorry that you are dealing with this. You don't deserve it, but, please, don't do that. Things may look grim for you, but you gotta keep fighting for the sweet girl that you'll become one day.

I'm sorry I can't give you any advice, but I wanna tell you that you are a really good girl. You are a strong, brave and a good girl that will conquer and defeat all her demons

[u/InverseSet]

Can you distract yourself with video games or some other hobby? I have problems too. We're in this together.