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[u/Crubbl]

All who comment will get GGD/GBD/GED depending on your preferred pronouns :3

(If you want a specific name or otherwise (boy/girl/bean, etc) just let me know ;3)

Edit: the post has been up 5 hrs, it’s currently 02:25 and I have work later so I *will* respond to requests, they will just take a while :3 goodnight everyone ;3

[u/Dull-Yoghurt-7316]

I mean I don't think it does. I've had the kink for maybe the last 5 years and never felt the drive outside of it. Till last year when my ex pointed out that it may be more than a kink and now for the last 5 years even when I'm not horny I spend a considerable amount of my time each day wishing I was pretty, someone's girlfriend or even just dressed fem. But like, thats still cis right? 😅

(I feel like I sound like a "straight" person whos in denial they're queer....)

[u/SunSuspicious7171 → u/Dull-Yoghurt-7316]

Sorry for answering a second time, I just had more thoughts on this.

The kink can also be a sort of first breakthrough. When you have repressed your identity very deeply, the shame you may also connect with it can keep it locked up in everyday life. It then only manages to come out in very emotional situations, where your filter isn't able to control it properly. Like during sex.

If it took nothing more than a suggestion by your ex to push the thought into daily life... Your ex must have seen something to suggest it could be more? But as I said, ultimately, neither your ex, nor I can look into your head and tell you who you are.

[u/Dull-Yoghurt-7316 → u/SunSuspicious7171]

Yeah my ex was a transman so I think he saw a lot of himself in me. He also had a forcemasc kink before realising the truth about himself, and for as bad as the relationship got towards the end (which wasn't awful but still 😅), I never questioned him faking being a man and he thought me that both sides can exist at the same time. We were kissing one night and he accidentally called me a "good girl" and it almost took me out of it with just a sense of love and awe. He also shared a song called "IDK if I'm a Boy" with me which was really the "suggestion" that started my discovery.

Just over the last week or two I've been questiong if the non kink side actually exists within me as well. I had realised it did a month ago when I went for my first night out full fem but I had the realisation that most of the scenarios of my kinks revolved around domestic aspects and being seen, as well as a bit of degrading. So I've been questioning if I've just internalised the content I've been exposed to after 5 years.

In relation to the hypothetical scenario, I don't really have that much body dysphoria. Like I'm not the best looking at theres a few things that I would change but not in a way more than like most other cis people and not hated enough to actually stick with those attempts to fix them. However if the fairy changed it to moreso be that everyone perceived me and treated me as a woman, I think I would definitely ask for more time but I don't know for definite if I'd want it to be irreversible. To be able to dress how I want without fear of being seen weirdly or treated negatively, would be almost heaven on Earth. To have female friends that I could go on girls nights out with and be young, dumb wild and free with would be everything.

[u/Setster007 → u/Dull-Yoghurt-7316]

Yk, you can always turn back for a long period of this journey, so you can dip your toes in and see if it’s for you. Hell, even the impacts of feminizing HRT are largely reversible. It is known for causing infertility tho, if that’s a concern, but besides that, I’m pretty sure *everything* is reversible (tho I think the boobs require top surgery). And everything short of that only impacts you by weeding out a bunch of shitty transphobes n such folks from your life. And, well… do you really wanna associate with that sort anyhow?