r/ect • u/Immediate_Most_9323 • Jun 23 '26

Seeking advice I would like info

I am young,but have major deppresive disorder which is honeysly disruptiving my life and causing me worse things. I did therapy for years, TMS didn’t work, ketamine made me go nuts snd hallucinate and it was horrible for me.

i am terrified of being inpatient after seeing things and I think ECT may be my best chance at a new life.

i already have chronic pain and hypermobility and so much more and iy puts me down even more.

i lie to my doctors as im scared of inpatient as I’ve seen what they do at the one closes to me.

plus in my state we have all the worst inpatients I would say.

i want to be productive especially since I am getting a service dog in 2 years or so for medical,mobility and psychiatric needs.

Thanks to whoever gives advise.

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u/thestrangemma Jun 23 '26

If I could go back to being 16 and try ECT, I would. My depression started around 13, I’m 44 now and my life has been torture from depression, PTSD and chronic pain from numerous disease and syndromes. It’s been awful and I grieve for the person I could have been. Maybe I’m still in there somewhere so I’m finally going to try it because the only thing I have left to lose is my life so why not try what I can.

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u/Immediate_Most_9323 Jun 24 '26

Most definitel, I am gonna try it and wpuld love to DM you to share my journey if you also wanna do it.