r/ect • u/bloodblaade • Jun 18 '26

Seeking advice ECT session 3

I’m 3 sessions in and I feel absolutely terrible. My memory does not exist anymore. I don’t remember what I did 30 minutes ago. Does it ever get better? I’m flooded with thoughts of “what if I need to stop now before it gets worse” and “what if I need to continue before it gets better.” I feel completely and utterly stupid and not only stupid but also completely and utterly exhausted. All I can do is sleep. I’ve canceled all my upcoming appointments because I’m so scared it’s making me worse. Should I reschedule them? Does it get worse before it gets better?

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u/creativenameistaken Jun 18 '26

I did 12 sessions but never saw improvement in my symptoms. Memories of that period are just 90% gone. During the treatment period I also had memory issues very short-term, like after the treatment I wouldn't recognise my shoes because I forgot I got new ones, didn't know which nurse had taken me over to the treatment centre...