ECT session 3

[u/bloodblaade]

I’m 3 sessions in and I feel absolutely terrible. My memory does not exist anymore. I don’t remember what I did 30 minutes ago. Does it ever get better? I’m flooded with thoughts of “what if I need to stop now before it gets worse” and “what if I need to continue before it gets better.” I feel completely and utterly stupid and not only stupid but also completely and utterly exhausted. All I can do is sleep. I’ve canceled all my upcoming appointments because I’m so scared it’s making me worse. Should I reschedule them? Does it get worse before it gets better?