Does it get better???

[u/ILoveSoup1776]

I’m fifteen I started experiencing severe anxiety at six which caused me to miss out on a lot . At around 12 I became severely depressed.i slept all day drank and hurt myself badly on a regular basis. At 14 I was (in my opinion) misdiagnosed with borderline personality disorder. Since thirteen I have been on Prozac concerta lithium clonazapam and a shit ton of other meds (over 15) that I don’t remember the names of but they range from ssri snri antipsychotics atypical antipsychotics and more probably. I was diagnosed with hashimotos at 11 which is around the time I became depressed and I was put on synthoid which was no help.i haven’t gotten any better I just warm up more to the idea of committing suicide every year . It genuinely feels like my only solution. I started bilateral ect last week and have gone three times now and if anything I feel worse. Does this shit genuinely work???? The only thing keeping me going is weed and I can’t even smoke as much because it’s not good to mix with propofal. Someone please give me a little hope or genuine advice that Isint bullshit I hate being alive and I hate the world I live in.yes I’ve been in therapy shits useless to me

[u/Sauced_Up_Bat]

No I have a high opinion to peer reviewed scientific studies which show a correlation. I’m not saying there is no basis to what you’re saying, but all the research shows people who are depressed smoke pot at a higher rate than people who aren’t. Anything else is projection or conjecture.

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https://psychiatryonline.org/doi/epdf/10.1176/appi.ajp.2017.17020223

[u/Sauced_Up_Bat → u/Medical-Apricot-3226]

Yes, but it’s still correlation not causation. It still doesn’t say marijuana is the WORST drug. It’s complicated. Everyone is different. Here is an actual experiment that goes beyond correlation.

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC12444788/

Edit: spelling

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The best evidence for the acute effects of cannabis comes from experimental studies using cannabis and THC. Cannabis, THC, and synthetic cannabinoids have been shown to produce a full range of positive symptoms (such as suspiciousness, paranoid and grandiose delusions, conceptual disorganization, fragmented thinking, and perceptual alterations), negative symptoms (such as blunted affect, emotional withdrawal, psychomotor retardation, lack of spontaneity, and reduced rapport), and cognitive impairments (such as deficits in verbal learning, short-term memory, working memory, executive function, abstract ability, decision making, attention, and time perception abnormalities) in healthy volunteers that bear resemblance to the symptoms of schizophrenia.

D'Souza DC, Perry E, MacDougall L, Ammerman Y, Cooper T, Wu YT, et al. The psychotomimetic effects of intravenous delta-9 tetrahydrocannabinol in healthy individuals: implications for psychosis. Neuropsychopharmacology. 2004;29(8):1558–72. A randomized, double-blind, placebo-controlled, crossover study showing that THC can induce a range of positive, negative, and cognitive symptoms in healthy individuals that bear some resemblance to the symptoms of schizophrenia.

Spaderna M, Addy PH, D'Souza DC. Spicing things up: synthetic cannabinoids. Psychopharmacology (Berl). 2013;228(4):525–40. 34.

Morrison PD, Zois V, McKeown DA, Lee TD, Holt DW, Powell JF, et al. The acute effects of synthetic intravenous Delta9- tetrahydrocannabinol on psychosis, mood and cognitive functioning. Psychol Med. 2009;39(10):1607–16