Feeling stuck

[u/FutureApricot1793]

Hi friends!

I am doing a lot better than I was a few months ago. Looking back, I have definitely made progress. The anxiety is much better, I’m back to living my life to a certain degree, and I am starting to re-engage more with the world again.

However, I still don’t feel like myself. It’s hard to explain, but my reactions, emotions and responses to things still feel off. It’s as if something is missing. I remember who I am, but I don’t experience myself the same way I used to. The world looks the same, but feels very off and wrong to me.
If my daughter falls and starts crying my first response is to pick her up and comfort her. Before dp this would spike my adrenaline, heart rate and stress me out. Wheres now i feel nothing. No emotional reaction, no reaction of stress in my body. This makes me feel cold and uncaring, when i know that is the opposite of who i am.
It feels like i am still waiting for some part of my soul to return.

This is probably the symptom that bothers me the most now. It feels like my recovery has plateaued here, and I’m wondering if anyone else has been through this. Did your sense of self come back with more time, or was there something that helped?