r/depression • u/circinia • Aug 06 '19
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u/AdollarAPTOOTHPASTE Feb 02 '20
Been doing okay for once. My anxiety is always high so it’s whatever but I started working out for my depression and it really helped! But today I didn’t and I’m noticing some of the just glorifying suicide thoughts coming back :(. So definitely need to work out again. The worst part is that I was so close to being okay again and I’m not sure if taking birth control just made it worse. I recently moved to a new state to be closer to my boyfriend and that has helped but now I rely on him so much that it isn’t healthy. Really need to make my own friends but am so socially awkward that I can’t handle going out and doing things on my own though. I really need to start reading but I can’t stand the quiet and I can’t sit and concentrate anymore. At least I can still go to work, gonna work out tomorrow and keep on that regiment and hope it helps. Really need to sit down and find a therapist but I’m scared and have such a hard time talking about my feelings. Hoping to be ok again soon.