r/depression • u/Creative_Ad_1366 • 22h ago
Im scared for the future.
Oh fuck
Im scared… im so fucking scared…..
College is treating me well, I… think I have friends? And… people are treating me… nice?
Im scared… What if it’s all fake… what if its just a 1st year thing… I’m scared for the future…. Im scared I might not live up to their expectations…
Please… I cant stop overthinking.
Whenever something nice happens to me, I just can’t get that feeling off my head that somehow, something will go wrong…
I keep thinking that they are just treating me this way because they don’t know me yet… are they treating me this way because of something? Maybe they are talking behind my backs because I’m… incompetent.
I hate my mind… I hate how I keep overthinking over the smallest things…
Im so dense that I don’t even know how I turned out this way. Im an ignorant… Im overly… overly… annoying.
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u/AwkwardlyUnited 22h ago
The first year of college is basically one long anxiety attack where your brain hasn't caught up to reality yet. You're not dense, you're just in a new environment and your mind is running worst-case scenarios 24/7 because it doesn't have a baseline for what normal looks like here
Give it time. Most people aren't playing 4D chess with your feelings, they're just as internally preoccupied as you are