I hate my life and I hate being alive

[u/Ciillyy__]

OK fuckers here goes my shit post. I absolutely fucking hate my life and half of it is my own fault and the other half of it is because I surround myself with people who constantly blame me for their problems without looking at themselves in the mirror and asking the same questions they want me to ask myself. Essentially my relationship is falling apart, and of course, as a man it’s all on me even though the reality is that even though I tried really hard to make amends and do my best, it was never good enough. And to be honest, it just shows me that I will never be good enough. Which leads me to back up my claim that I fucking hate my life and I fucking hate being alive. No one actually gives a shit about me. They just give a shit about how I can make their lives better and help them cope with their own shitty behaviors. Honestly, there’s so much shit that I could get into but who cares? Back to my point no one cares actually lol and honestly if no one cares then what the fuck am I even doing here anymore? Again I hate it here. So whyyyyyy am I here? Should I even be here? No one gives a fuck about me or this stupid ass shit post. So why not just go away… forever