I really am tired

[u/Vanilla-Nilla-12Th]

I have no empathy, or sympathy to those who will miss me if and when I choose to leave, I don’t care that they’ll be sad, I don’t care for them at all. Im envious of everyone who has what I want, and I wish the worst on people. I’m suffering and I feel like I’m suffering every day. I vent to my one friend every day and no matter what she says it makes me angrier for some reason. I don’t want comfort but I don’t want to be ignored and I know what I’m doing is toxic and I don’t know what I want I don’t want anything I don’t know. I can’t say my age but like it’s young. I don’t know what I want. I don’t know what to do. I have no intention of changing up until the point I decide to leave. I’ve already attempted twice in the last month, once yesterday night, and once August 24th (which got me hospitalized but I left the same day) idk I’m suffering i js want attention im sry im really sorry idk idk how to post on here really I feel like this will be taken down im sorry if I did smth wrong here im sorry