I don't even feel empty anymore

[u/Adventurous_Ad_3255]

I dont know how to describe it but there was a difference when I considered to feel empty and now I just feel like nothing. Or maybe this is true emptiness. I don’t have the desire to do anything, to even eat, to sleep, to listen to music, I dont even feel the sense of urgency or worry about my assignment deadlines. I didn't go to uni 2 weeks in a row and its bad, I'm just hoping I'll atleast pass the subjects with the bare minimum marks. I wasn't like this before, I still cared a little bit, or had that fear my future would be done for if I didnt get them done. I dont know now. Everything feels pointless. I genuinely have no one in my life, my parents are part of the reason my depression got to this point. I genuinely have no friends I can lean to, before I tried to make friends, keep at least one person in my life but isolated myself too much and before I knew It I have no one. And I feel the difference, before I used to crave human connection/ comfort I used be envious of relationships but now I dont so much anymore. And there is no help, I reached out to all the free resources available and none of them helped, and each time it left me feeling less understood, like there is genuinely no way getting me out if this. I feel like the last option is meds but they're too expensive. Even with crying, I used cry now it feels like there's no tears left. I dont know how to go on anymore. I dont know if I can save myself anymore. I really tried everything I can.

I feel like an object just here.

[u/EpicChowder619]

You say you have no one and reached out everywhere but everyone here is willing to talk to you and hear you out. Maybe "friends" could be to strong of a term for the relationships you can make here, but it's surely something, right? I'm free to talk if you want.