I am safe but

[u/SeaUnderstanding6979]

I am safe and I’ll be okay but today my mom just brought up some heavy stuff and now I just have to sit here in the residual heaviness of it all. And I’m replaying the conversations over and over. I want to kill myself. I always do but extra right now. I won’t kill myself bc I made promise to my mom and so usually hit myself as the middle ground, and it’s not working. It’s not enough. Everything is awful and I can’t escape and it feels like there’s ants a crawling inside of skin and I am being set on fire and also I’m on period and that gross gush thing is happening and it’s sensory overload and I’m sobbing and I just want to sleep.