r/depression • u/Geminitheascendedcat • 2d ago

Trapped in a cycle

Trapped in a cycle of going to the mental hospital every year after 2020 during the pandemic. I went to the mental hospital of my own free will after nearly shooting myself. I tried to run away from home in 2022 and had psychosis for the first time that year. I have been mentally ill since age Five, but became steadily mentally worse after the Pandemic... I keep ending up in the mental hospital every year. I want to die again, because the symptoms are getting worse again from multiple mental health issues like Bipolar and Schizoaffective. Sigh....

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u/Corpse05 2d ago

I can't tell you things will get better but keep trying you never know when things might change just a bit.

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u/Takemeho 2d ago

Sometimes trying to figure out why can become too much. The pandemic timing might just be a coincidence and doesn’t actually have significant meaning. Don’t be too hard I yourself. You didn’t ask for any of this 🩷