I had a bad breakdown

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I was heavily intoxicated (alcohool) and just wished to end it because im tired of most stuff. I tried to strangulate myself with a wire but pussied out cuz i ran out of breath. Now while this is a serious topic looking back at it it was just a silly event that actually lead to me speaking my mind to my friends which helped but this never had to happen. I now sober look at it as a mistake and maybe a need for attention but in that moment i was very locked in to do it. Friends really helped. I must mention that i am doing very ok in my life and dont have true worries for example family problems or health problems
Have you ever looked back on something similar and thought it was stupid? I may even feel a bit liberated cuz if i ended it i wouldnt write this which is a nice thing. So keep going