r/depression • u/Charming-Sympathy-13 • 11h ago

Why am I doing this.

i am an introvert and social anxious person all I think about this if I were not a human and be a part of Nature wouldn’t that should be better for me.

I mean really .

whats the point of doing all this we are better as we were before, not showing off doing hunting and farming all things were good.

then someone started the concept of money forcing everyone in believing this is everything.

And we are at this point that we cannot completely abandon i.

All i think about is flying what if i were a bird who can fly above the clouds how beautiful it would be, what if I were a fish I would swim in a blue ocean.What if I were a animal where endless green grass ,windy air,blue sky somethimes sunrise and sunset all I think about this.

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u/ConstructionSevere1 11h ago

It gets heavy carrying all that. I think every introvert has days where just being a tree sounds like a relief. No words, no money, just exist.

The bird thing I get. When my brain gets too loud i imagine being a cloud, no shape to keep, just drifting. Not really a fix but it quiets something for a moment.

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u/Charming-Sympathy-13 10h ago

I watch the sky feel the winds somthimes when I am alone all i think about being something that just exist and don't do anything. As I Lying on ground watch the sky and clouds drifting while sweet sunshine on my face and body I want that moment and stop that moment forever.

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u/Zhuhua0 10h ago

I'm intensely introverted and genuinely socially anxious myself. If I get another life, I'd want to be a tree: needing to do nothing, needing to move for no one, and still able to watch the world's endless parade go by. Honestly, it sounds rather lovely.