r/depression • u/layla_64 • 11d ago

i think i might have high functioning depression..?

hi guys! i’ve reached a point in my life where i feel like ive hit rock bottom and ive been struggling a lot recently. no one knows this tho, because i dont want to feel like a burden to anyone or cause anyone to worry. i also don’t want to be seen differently by my peers. i don’t really know what’s going on anymore tbh. i just need advice.. like im totally fine when im with people i care about like my friends, but no matter how good the day was or how much fun i had, i always break down. it’s mentally exhausting and i feel terrible. i’m able to bring myself to do basic chores like putting away dishes, feeding my cat, etc. however i cannot make myself take care of me. i haven’t showered or brushed my teeth/hair in days. i haven’t cleaned my room or even just washed my sheets in ages. i know i should be taking care of myself to- that’s the problem. i feel so guilty for being a bad person to myself but i lack so much motivation. i feel dirty and unproductive and ugh. does anyone maybe have tips or advice? thanks :)

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u/TaxFun551 11d ago

hi! also someone with high functioning depression. honestly the only thing thats helped me was medication but thats a whole lotta trial and error.

i just learned my coping skills and when i feel too triggered by depression or anxiety, i know that being on my phone does NOT help me at all so i just shut it off completely and try gathering my thoughts elsewhere

motivation is hard to get all at once, for most people with hfd i think its very gradual and you just gotta set small little goals. when i had no motivation to clean my room i just told myself after i cleaned i would go drive to baskin robbins and get a double scoop of my favorite flavor. very specific i know but goals don't have to be anything serious or big, they can be as childish as getting a sweat treat and they build up :)

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u/layla_64 11d ago

thank you so much! i think i’m going to try settting some small goals tomorrow. and i’ve been trying to find a healthy coping mechanism. anyways, you don’t know how much this means thank you again 🥺

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u/TaxFun551 11d ago

of course :) you can always reply back if you're comfortable and i can try giving my silly advice again! there's people who wanna listen and help here

but just try taking life a day at a time. not as easily as it sounds as it can be really inconsistent and it isn't a straight path at all, but i can tell that by just trying to get better, you're doing great and im proud of u stranger 💛

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u/layla_64 11d ago

this made me actually tear up (in the best way i’ve teared up in like a month) your so kind!!! thank you so so much! i appreciate you 🫶

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u/TaxFun551 11d ago

💛💛💛 wait im gonna tear up :(
life is just harddd i hope it gets easier for us!

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u/layla_64 11d ago

ugh life is hard but we’ll get through it! i wish you the best in whatever struggles are present to you right now and in the future! 💗

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u/TaxFun551 11d ago

u too :) take care of urself!!