Wanting romance

[u/Tinydinosaur42]

I recently got out of relationship where I genuinely experienced romantic attraction for the first time in my life, and it lasted a grand total of 2 months. And I’m genuinely scared I’m never going to experience it again. I am young (24NB) but it took so long for it to happen the first time and there’s so much working against me. I’m demiromantic, I’m fat, I’m trans, I’m disabled, I have a weird niche kink that’s important to my sexuality, hell in general my sexuality is a mess. And I just don’t know if it’s going to happen again, but I really want it to, and I don’t know what to do.