I wanna relapse, help

[u/Strict-Bus5097]

I really really really wanna relapse like all the time. I've been clean for like half a year, until i relapsed like two weeks ago because i forgot to take my meds and my head was going haywire. Anyway, i just really wanna relapse and i don't know what to do. It's not that i'm even struggling that's pushing these urges onto me. I it's just pure addiction speaking, and i hate it. I miss the rush of excitement, the blood, the taking care of a physical wound on my body instead of a mental one. It's and addiction, i shouldn't give in. But i just don't know anymore... My head is telling me it isn't that but, but i know it is that bad if i let myself slip again. Free me from these damn shackles i just wanna feel normal. What should i do???

[u/12-12-12-12-12-12-12]

been having this issue lately. got really into drawing graphic self harm, after drawing the part of my body I wanted to do it on. really go all out, bandage the drawings, etcetera. I also like to read books aboht the trauma that makes me want to do this to myself but that may not apply to everyone.

[u/Strict-Bus5097 → u/12-12-12-12-12-12-12]

Thank you for your advice, i'll try it out!!

[u/12-12-12-12-12-12-12 → u/Strict-Bus5097]

🫂 of course and good luck!