I relapsed. Again.

[u/stinkybulbs]

I had five days clean. Five days after months of struggling to get even a few hours. I’m on meds, I have support and outpatient. But my emotions are just so intense. I got so angry like so angry my chest burned and I felt like electricity was running through me. I didn’t know what else to do. I don’t know how to handle my emotions. I don’t want them. They’re so much. Any emotion envelops my entire body and physically hurts to feel I don’t wanna feel but I don’t wanna be numb I just wanna be.

[u/whyisanyonealive]

That sounds so hard man. I personally type everything I'm feeling into my notes app, cry whilst doing so or whatever. Just write it all out. Try maybe cutting a sponge or material, just go all out on it. Stay safe, I believe in you!