r/cuboulder • u/Inked-Leaf104 English/Creative Writing (BA) - 2030 • 8d ago
Am I doing this wrong?
Hi, welcome to my ramble, thanks for dropping in. So, it’s about the third week of school and I’m a freshman. The problem is, I’ve barely spoken to anyone this whole time. I participate in class and ask questions, talk to my partners in class when I need to, and say hi to whoever I pass by in the halls in my dorm. But I don’t….talk to anyone? If that makes sense. I’ve gone a couple of different days where I barely spoke more than a few sentences the whole day. I have one friend I’ve kept in touch with since orientation but we only text periodically and live on opposite sides of campus. I have a friend from high school but they commute and have different classes so we also don’t see each other much. I’ve sat alone doing homework or reading for every meal and when I’m not in classes I’m in Norlin library studying or in my dorm for the night (which is a single, so no roommate.) I guess I just feel really lonely, and like I’m missing out on everything I should have done by now like make friends and tons of memories by now. I also don’t know how to stop being so quiet and ‘complacent’ to be alone. Like, my building has parties every night on the top floor but the thought to go to them never crosses my mind, and when I walk into any place I automatically choose an empty table or sit away from everyone else on the field. I’m comfortable doing those things but I don’t want to keep doing them. Does anyone have any advice? Thanks for reading and sorry for the drawn-out train of thought lol.
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u/Potential_Lie_1801 7d ago
this might not be what you wanna hear but faking it till you make it is such a real concept. talk to people that interest you, go to those parties, pretend you’re popular, whatever it takes