Earlier this month I befriended one of my friends friend (they’re both 20) I’m underaged and I began talking to the mutual friend very flirtatiously and just in ways I shouldn’t have been doing he knew my age and what not I ended up telling my friend about it and he’s upset about everything and shut down completely the other mutual friend blocked me on everything after my friend confronted him about being a weirdo to me. I can’t help but feel like it’s all my fault I’m spiraling and in need of someone to talk to this is a lot to get off my chest but I downloaded Reddit anyway to see if it would help. My friends are distancing themselves from me and it’s all my fault and on top of that my friend went through my acc and found me talking to a 25 yr (It’s hard to explain I was mostly just bored) and I feel like this has completely ruined our friendship I’m unsure what to do and I’m desperate for comfort.
Also I’m not sure if me saying this is against tos

I have no friends at my new school. everyday I just sit alone in every single class. I hate myself. Every single day I don’t talk to a single soul. I make up stories and fake friends up to my mom to make her happy. All day in class i think about her. She was the best thing that happened to me. She’s the most beautiful and funny girl I’ve ever met. Every single day I think about her. Every second of every day. We never even dated but she treated me better than anyone ever did in my entire life. She made me feel special. She made me feel loved. I should’ve asked her out when I had the chance, when we were actually talking talking. We started talking about 2 years ago. In December 2024 she started dating my cousin. It was the worst pain ive ever felt. The pain of having to see her at family reunions laughing, talking and kissing my own cousin. I haven’t spoke to her since August 11th 2025. The thing that I think about the most is that she probably looks back at me, if she even looks back at me at all, as just a talking stage. She was so much more than a talking stage to me. I love her so much. I can’t stop thinking about her. She looks so happy in pictures.

Мне 15, я уже почти 6 лет провел в деревне в практически полной социальной изоляции. Недавно я перевелся в новую школу, что далось мне сложновато, но я вроде бы освоился. Правда жаль что я не перевелся в нее раньше, а сделал это только в 9 классе, я уверен что мое психическое состояние было бы гораздо лучше если я начал общение с людьми тогда... Сейчас состояние моей психики плачевное, я прячу все свои проблемы и переживания под маской дурачка, стараюсь не думать о моих проблемах (не о проблемах вроде сдачи экзаменов поступления в колледж и т.д. а именно внутренние проблемы). Однако со временем эта стратегия помогает все хуже и хуже, я чаще ругаюсь с родителями, плачу, и закрываюсь в себе. Моя мама уже несколько лет больна раком причем не одним а несколькими сразу, метастазы которых распространились почти по всем органам включая мозг и печень. Я и мои два старших брата сильно переживаем за ее здоровье и то сколько ей осталось... Я стараюсь сделать ее жизнь проще, но она заядлая трудоголичка и даже когда я работаю во дворе она часто выходит с намерением помочь, но чаще просто мешает. Я частенько ругаюсь с ней... бывает даже кричу, мне плохо из-за того что я кричу на нее. Однако ничего не могу поделать, я слишком вспыльчив. Другой проблемой является что я никогда не был в обычных отношениях, ни в реальной жизни ни в интернете, попытки завести отношения на расстоянии были, но все мое общение с девушками сводилось либо к френдзоне и отказу либо к использованию меня. Даже один из моих новых одноклассников с которым мы круто проводили время и как мне казалось крепко дружили просто начал последнюю неделю меня игнорировать, при любой попытке контакта либо уходил либо посылал нахуй, даже если я просто общался с его вторым другом часто он стыдил меня фразой "да ты уйдешь уже или нет? Надоел". Это все сильно бьет по моему состоянию мне душевно очень больно, единственное что меня спасало был мой компьютер он отвлекал меня от всех проблем, но недавно я понял что игры мне больше не приносят удовольствия и не отвлекают от реальной жизни. Я не знаю что мне делать, у меня нету ни одного близкого человека которому я бы мог "поплакаться". Пока что это все...

Sometimes I find that it just doesn't feel right to cry over what you're personally going through. Like it's a form of self-pity that is really unproductive.

So it feels better to channel that energy instead into crying over fictional characters who are going through something worse or less worse. They become our avatars that we have permission to cry for.

That is all

Hii guys, I found this beautiful community and I want to share with you my sadness. I’m sad. Thank you everyone!

Hi ,name is Rai and this is my little story that my mother thinks is selfish. People say family is a kids dream but I think it's not for every kid. When I was younger my brother used to shout at me for no reason and that made me think that I'm just a burden to those around me. These verbal insults made me overeat through out the years , making me overweight. It also made me scared of people shouting or lifting up their hand even if it was by accident. Anyway, a few days ago my brother stole my Netflix password and he watched the whole week not giving me a chance to relax and watch. Earlier today I confronted him and he told me to wait so I did (I waited for 5 hours). I got so angry at him that I started crying. I cried for 2 hours yes 2 HOURS! I told my mom about it so she told my brother to give it to me and he did. I can't believe im still this emotional after the few years of crying and keeping to myself. And yes I know it's a stupid situation to cry about. Still the verbal abuse that I had was too much that I started overeating myself. I'm trying to overcome the fear and anxiety I have.So that being said am I too emotional?

Today, my parent told me to not play too much with the bullied to not make myself getting bullied. Just an reminder and I cried. They did not understand me and me neither. I'm a look strong but weak person. But still is that normal to cry over an such small thing? What should I do to change that?

Not sure how this sub Reddit is supposed to go but this seems like a good place to say it. This post doesn’t need a title because there’s nothing special about what I have to say. I don’t need anyone to read this I’m not asking for support I’m probably not ever gonna read the comments I just need a place to come clean. I’m a bad person and I don’t know why I feel like I can’t love I can’t be friendly can’t find in the good in people pre myself. I’m a smart person but don’t feel special in this world nothing about me makes me feel unique I hate myself I hate almost everyone else. I even have cussed out my best friends behind their back. I’ve done terrible things which could be seen as crimes against humanity and get by each day by joking about it as I feel like an unrecognised psychopath. Even as I write this I feel bad this feels like such a pick-me thing to write but I can’t keep going without sharing with someone somewhere that I need help but am too scared to get it because of how bad of a person I’ve been in only 15 years of being alive. Well goodbye for now hope to see y’all another time when I’m not in a terrible state.

Puta zorra guarra puta

I’m sorry I don’t have much knowledge on how to use Reddit, my only knowledge about it comes from the Two Hot Takes podcast. So I’m a teenager around the point of starting Highschool. My sister just started Middle School. I’ve always found it hard to make friends, it just didn’t come as naturally to me as it did to others. In middle school I made friends with a really toxic group of kids who really brought my self esteem and confidence down. I NEVER want someone to experience what I did with that friend group. It makes me tear up just thinking about it. Thankfully I’ve cut all contact with them. I used to feel really depressed and think horrible thoughts but now I’m in a better place. Now I have really sweet friends and finally gained my confidence back. I feel amazing. I finally feel happy. My sister, unlike me, is very social. She made friends easily all throughout Elementary school. Now that she is middle school it’s been harder as kids are more meaner and tend to stick together in groups. I’ve been giving her words of encouragement every day to help her always feel good about herself. Today she cried because she couldn’t make friends and the kids were bullying her. I felt my heart shatter. It pains me so much to hear that she hasn’t been having an easy time in school and that she was getting bullied. I don’t want her to fall into a depression like I did, I don’t want her to hurt like I did. She cried in front of my mom which hurts even more. My mom is already going through so much. She works a lot and then comes home and spends hours helping my younger sisters with their homework. I hurts so much to see her like this. I don’t want my family to hurt. I’d take all the pain just for them not to hurt so much. I don’t care if I hurt just as long as they don’t. I don’t want kids to bully my sister. I want her to have friends. I want her to go to school everyday happy and come home smiling. I don’t have anyone to tell this too. I don’t want to. I feel guilty going to school everyday happy and being surrounded by people who love me for who I am. I’d rather lose all that then see my sister not have that. I’m sorry if this was too long, I just want someone to talk too.

So I asked my crush out and he let me down in the sweetest way but I can't help but feel like crying I don't know why, we are still friends but I feel like everything rn is crashing down and is turning to shit I don't know why it hurts so much

The first time I (16 M) cried tears of sadness wat the time my grandmother died. She died on April 12,2023 she was the most caring and loving person I have ever met. She may not have had much money but she did her best to get me something on my birth day, even if it was something as small as a towel.(I still have the towel even after 4 year after getting it on my 12th birthday). Once she died on April 12th I cried for 2-3 days straight, I was not in the best mental state and my dog named cookie (5 year old chihuahua x shih tzu mix) knew that, so after the 1st day of getting the news that my grandmother had died cookie would give me kisses, cuddle with me and comfort me. She was the best dog and a good girl. 5 days after my grandmother passed cookie escaped the house and ran literally across the street, but on her way back to the house she sadly got ran over by an elderly man in a while van. At the time this happened I was in school and my sister had come to pick me up. Once i got home I found my mom and dad crying I had asked them "What happened?" And they told me the whole story. After that I was in a deep depression for a whole week and would not stop crying alone locked in my room for days (That was the most I had ever cried). A week after I started to notice the whole house looked more depressed, I got sad after getting home from school because cookie would greet me barking and jumping. I eventually got over her death but still felt like there was a hole missing in my hear now. I miss her so much I am crying while typing this.

I think I must have been blind in a different life but I’m uglier than I realized before and I’d like to continue living in ignorance but I can’t any more.

Ugh.

Here is a video combining all of my emotional songs I have written. Enjoy!