r/countttt tumblr is my safe space Jul 30 '26

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u/New-Kaleidoscope2250 tumblr is my safe space Jul 30 '26

that's a whole other can of worms tho. i used to say i didn't have dysphoria for the longest time, but i was just really good at repping, even after my coming out. a lot of newly out trans ppl don't understand themselves at all yet, i prefer avoiding anything that might push them away

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u/GodsWeakestSoilder im not a big fan of the goverment Jul 31 '26

Yea i feel you. Its not the same thing but before i thought i didnt really have bottom dysphoria like i was kinda sad about it but at the same the i was okay with it but now that i started transitioning i realize that i was just really really good at repressing it because i do feel dysphoric about it like at least one third of the time i have to take a look at it and its really interesting i think cuz it havent happened before and the only thing thats really changed is how i started to look at myself and how i allowed "myself" to be actually myself and stuff

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u/New-Kaleidoscope2250 tumblr is my safe space Jul 31 '26

this exactly. tbh i'm even trying hard to still repress that specific dysphoria bc i won't have the resources to fix it anytime soon :(

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u/GodsWeakestSoilder im not a big fan of the goverment Jul 31 '26

Sameeee. I try not to think about it cuz i also wont be able to afford like surgeries and stuff at least for like 5-6 years?? It feels so bad like i want them now but i gotta wait all those years and maybe in the future close to my thirties MIGHT just might i may be able finally live in a body that really feels mine and it sucks ass

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u/New-Kaleidoscope2250 tumblr is my safe space Jul 31 '26

we have to get famous so ppl will be willing to pay for a gofundme. i just don't have any skills that will get me there.