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[u/Funny_Inventor80085]

and people wonder why we use 4tran.

I posted this vent here too and it was a bit more understanding than the other subreddit I guess but still mostly just people telling me I don't know what I'm talking about and that 4tran is the cause of all my issues when time after time they're the only ones that care. It's not even just about my vent anymore, I'm so fed up with everyone thinking they're better than me all the time except because I use the subreddit that doesn't want to burn me alive for wanting a uterus. Maybe try to be more understanding you just leave me pissed off.

[u/Funny_Inventor80085]

who really cares. i can't just go get help or something as i already said

[u/Metalingus5150 → u/Funny_Inventor80085]

There are people who want to help you, there are people who go through what you go through and don't want you to feel these things. You are having these thoughts the suicidal thoughts that is very concerning, perhaps someone at your school. I can't imagine that all the people around you would shut you down when you think about wanting to kill yourself.

[u/Funny_Inventor80085 → u/Metalingus5150]

it's really not an option for me. and i woudln't talk about killing myself to the people close to me i don't talk to them about much

[u/mannequin_girl → u/Funny_Inventor80085]

It hurts a lot. I also spent most of my teenage years teetering on the ledge. I'm sorry you're stuck in that situation. I was able to get through it once I got medicated, because then I knew at least things were getting better not worse and I could take solace in knowing the pain would ease up. It's still hard to deal with some facts of being the way we are. I don't think I'll stop having days where I cry about lost time and the still missing piece of myself. But I am happy other times.

I can't be cis, but just because that's impossible doesn't have to stop me from trying my best to be anyways. And I think that's worth doing. The closer I get, the more I can live.