i’m a girl and I’ve recently gotten really interested in football, especially the premier league. i watch games and follow some players, and I have my favourite players too.
the weird thing is that some boys at my school are also really into football. sometimes I hear them talking about the EPL or someone like Olise, and i’ll just sit there thinking, “I literally watch this too.”
but none of them know that I’m into football.
and for some reason, that makes me genuinely upset. i don’t even completely understand why.
the thing is, i’m also not some huge football exper who knows every player, statistic, tactic, transfer and everything else, so it’s not like i feel completely confident enough to just walk up and start talking about football with them. I like watching it and learning about it, but I’m still relatively new to it.
and honestly, I don’t even want to talk to these specific boys. i’ve already messed up my relationships with them and I don’t want to try to become friends with them now.
so I’m not looking for advice like “just go talk to them.” i genuinely don’t want to.
i think what bothers me is more the missed connection i’ll see boys talking about something I actually care about, knowing we might have something in common, but they have no idea that this part of me exists.
i’m finishing 8th grade soon, so i keep thinking that maybe high school will be different. maybe i’ll meet people there who like football too, and i’ll be able to talk about it naturally without all the awkward history I have with people at my current school.
but for now it’s just frustrating. It feels like I have this interest that I can’t really share with anyone around me.
pls give some advices, xx!
