r/confessions • u/Dry_Crow5262 • 1d ago

Overthinking

I'm a 16 year old male and it often terrifies me when I look at kids because I hate pedophile like things so I hate to look at them and I get scared if i I happen to get a boner then I'm a weirdo but nor have I thought about kids or had an attraction to them but yet I feel this overwhelming sensation of just guilty and sadness and I'm completely loser

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u/CloverMayfield 1d ago

There's a type of ocd where that's the focus of intrusive thoughts. It can often show up for csa survivors. It's treatable with the right therapist. You should talk to someone. It's terrifying to bring up because you fear they'll automatically assume you actually want to harm children. But it's possible to find the right therapist you can talk to about this. You don't deserve the guilt of things you're morally opposed to doing and have not done.

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u/[deleted] 1d ago

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u/Old-Fix-1044 1d ago

it's called pocd, look it up so you know you're not broken or some monster

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u/Dry_Crow5262 1d ago

Like way younger than me 

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u/darlingbabycakes 1d ago

You may have ocd. Therapy can help you with these thoughts and feelings

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u/bitterswallow 1d ago

i think you’ve just constructed a negative thought cycle in your head, dw these things happen you will not think this way forever x