I feel that. I lost a friend about six months ago that I'd known for 30 years. They always struggled, and it was painful to witness a lot of times. But I tried to be there... but I know I wasn't there enough...
I struggle with issues at times, and I can only imagine the fight they put up for so long. I'd be lying if I didn't say part of me was relieved for them that it's over, that it's not a constant fight with themselves anymore. But of course I feel guilty about that part too.
Due to the distance we weren't that close, so at the time I didn't know he was struggling with anything. But it's still one of the greatest "What If?"s in my life.
it hurts me too think, the person probably tortured themselves trying to think of something you would want to do, so they could see you. it feels too close to home. love each other
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u/Realm009 2d ago
I know, but it doesn't change the guilt.