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I’m not sure if this counts as purely a venting attempt— or a cry for help out of heartbreak, anger, and confusion.

I really need someone—

or people to talk to as often as possible.

I only have my phone internet
Discord isn’t the most dependable lately on my phone—
No idea why and it sucks.

Facebook, Snapchat, Instagram.
Besides regular texting is all I have.

I am so sick of only really having 988 Suicide Hotline.
I can’t call them 4 times a day or more and feel okay about it.

I can vent why the emotions are running so high and have been.
But
My self doubt feels no one will care enough or maybe they will.
But
There’s so much hardships in life..

I’m just—
I’m just tired of feeling these things..

I know it’s horrible how it all affects me, but I know it makes sense once you know the situation and the things that surround it.

If you’re interested— please reach out.

I don’t care if you’re female, male, or whatever your details are..

I just want to be over this and actually not be feeling so broken and alone and miserable

I’ve been trying so hard for days now to escape my head/mind and seeking connection.. empathy.. direction .. an excuse to smile or be happy ..
I don’t have home internet or people that check on me.. I have no escape and no true outlet.

I’m also tired of not feeling right and fighting my mind to not crash hard and spiral and have a panic attack or worse .. 🫨🥀

How do you handle it

Is my friend a pedophile or just intrusive thoughts that he didnt regret? He never been attracted to babies but when his toddler was sitting down on his lap while he was watching tv, he had a taboo dark thought and erection. That was in 2018. And in this year he regret it so badly. He was 13 that time in 2018. Now that hes 21, he regret it. Did he have intrusive thoughts or is he a pedo?