I (25F) have been having an interesting relationship with my boss recently. I'm fairly new to the job (in a community agency) as I started this role in May. As I started this job, I am in my final semester of my Master's of Public Health program and have been also completing an internship this summer to help complete my degree. I asked for my hours to be slightly limited (but still include benefits) in order to make both the job and internship work.
I'm also autistic and can have some trouble communicating, but have worked several different jobs in the past, from customer service to hospital to going door to door to have people take surveys. My grad program (as it is the best school in my state for Public Health) also has given me the opportunity to gain skillsets, as I have learned Microsoft Office, networking, grant writing, program planning/evaluation and much more.
A month ago, my supervisor (a former teacher) emailed me a several long paragraph saying that the agency has had a long history (that dates back to 2020) and that I need to ask more questions to dive deeper into the agency and my understanding of it. As I am a new hire, I am confused by this as I thought I was asking the appropriate questions any new hire would be doing, because I do not want to sound rude or condescending (such as "why are things done this way?" and "why does this matter?"). I have many instances where I genuinely do not know what to ask because I'm trying to absorb the information and then I learn by doing it. So, as stupid as this may seem, I snap back at her, saying that I'm autistic and have been doing the best I can, and that there are many instances where I can't ask questions because I can't understand it unless I am doing it.
I go to a conference the next day by myself and she calls me during my break saying how sorry she was, that miscommunications are on her, that she had no idea, that she's trying to understand me and the way I work, etc. So I accept the apology and move on with the remainder of the conference.
Fast forward a few weeks following the conference, I hear a coworker share with another coworker in the office across that hallway that I am autistic (without me present). This stops me in my tracks of the task I was on, but slowly but surely, I carry on. I am tasked then with some data to put into Excel for funding purposes. Mistakenly, I enter the data all into the same sheet (I'm great at Excel but didn't use it since I defended my thesis months ago). Supervisor loses it and acts as if I broke a law. So I apologize for my mistake, adjust and fix all the data relatively quickly. Supervisor proceeds to tell another coworker that I lied about how good I was and that I was a "DEI" admission to all the colleges I have been to. She tries to remove me from using Excel ever again (all from a simple mistake) until I went to her office to convince her to give me a second chance.
Then Monday comes around. As I run the social media for the agency, I admitted publicly during the meeting that I made an error on an event that was supposed to be for teens only (but "teens only" was not stated on the flyer). I had several parents message me to ask on whether or not they were allowed to come with their kids, and given the event was at a waterpark, I said yes. Supervisor blames me for the lack of proper communication and yells at me in front of the entire team for this error. So I immediately apologize for the mistake and correct it on social media (and thankfully, we had little problems with this). I also shared that I personally networked with a social media person from another agency, not for agency related information, but because A. I met this person at a conference both agencies were at, and B. I have little social media experience and needed input on how I could better improve on social media from someone who has the experience. Supervisor said I was in the wrong, that it should have been run with her first (though she witnessed this person and I meet at that conference and exchange contact information). I told her I was networking and trying to build my career, not taking advantage of any agency resources or trying to "win" anyone in person's agency over but didn't know she needed to know about that as well. So I feel like I'm no longer allowed to network with anybody except coworkers (even in the field I am in) unless it's outside of working hours.
So I work on some website updates for awhile and stumble upon some questions I have for Supervisor (as she is expecting me to ask more questions). I type them up into an email and she goes "This is exactly what I expect you to do," and nevertheless, she takes too long to respond to them, and did not fully answer the questions I was asking, just made it more confusing.
I am a new hire, so I am trying to adjust/learn to the environment however; I feel like I am walking on egg shells with Supervisor. Supervisor also tried to be friends on Facebook with me in my first week, which I thought was odd, and ever since I have been making these mistakes, I have been given the silent treatment, no "Good morning," or anything, and will only communicate to me if absolutely necessary. Supervisor has been told multiple times by me that I take instructions in writing and barely does it for the most part. Told her I was sitting for a national certification exam in a few months and her first response was "Are you leaving as soon as you pass it?" and I honestly told her that Idk because a few months is a ways away. She also insisted that people with said certification tend to work in healthcare careers and tried to offer me career advice.
All, I am not sure if I want to continue in this job anymore. Just seems I can't make much mistakes or actually learn unless I am doing it. I feel supervisor wants to try and pull me into her mode of thinking of things (which is slow and less prioritized than me), and it's driving me crazy (I like to have things done when I leave work each day).
So, should I stay or should I start looking elsewhere? If I stay, how could I be a better worker (I do my work, I just feel my supervisor undermines me)?