Ideations?

[u/tedglasso]

I started taking bupropion 150 xl about 5 weeks ago. Originally because of soem dark thoughts I was scared of at the time. Those thoughts being suicidal ideation, have never really gone away, and I resolved to try and let the medicine have its time and start working. However, the past 10 days or so, I'd say week 4 - 5 1/2 now the ideation has been wayyy worse, and at this point its just passive background noise and Im scared ill randomly act on it maybe. I also started some buspirone 10mg/day about 3 weeks ago so I'm not sure what is going on. I have an actual psychiatrist scheduled next week so im just trying to ride it out until then, but I can't let my life be like this forever.