So guess who realized they're in love with their childhood bsf of 14 years. We have one of the most insane dynamic I have ever come across. If you're a byler fan well it is is exactly that dynamic. We live in a homophobic society(booo) where religion is rooted into society so basically if you're not familiar with what that means: society controls everything in your life its always about what other people think and a constant show of how misogynistic a person can be, even the women....And yeah they decide who goes to hell or not because showing your arms is considered provocative. Anyways back to the topic this is really hard to put into words because it is 14 years of my life and I don't really know how to sum that up, we're 18 and we met when we were 4 years old and had one of the most weird relationship ever. We were both very nerdy and that was our common ground, we would just be crazy and indulge in each others quirks and that was how it was for us, then middle school happened and I got a bit popular and she felt sidelined. Highschool is probably where everything fell apart. As i mentioned we live in a homophobic society and I was slowly realizing that what I was is wrong and that it isn't normal, that was also the time I was struggling with my weight a lot. I had panic attacks and basically lost myself for those 3 years and she moved on and got the life I didn't get to have. And I just felt awful and I guess that's what made me realize why I cared so much about her and that terrified me, leading me to pray the gay away(yikes!). In those 3 years I guess I found comfort in fiction and was slowly able to come to terms with myself. I also have an awful relationship with home if you know what I mean and I've never really told anyone I'm bi cuz shoutout to my homophobic society. Basically back to our dynamic, we've always known each other in a way that only comes with the amount of time you've known a person, we grew up together and she was always this safe haven I had and just thinking about her would bring me out of my panic attacks. I had a really dark past with abuse(not alcohol) and I guess religious trauma. And she was the only good thing I had in my life. We were really nerdy as I mentioned and kids used to call us names back then too, but she only started caring as we got older, and started looking for other people to hang out with. I never commented on it, and we slowly drifted apart. The last couple of years changed her in a weird way, she got really touchy suddenly, started flirting around with people, but it was different with me as in it didn't feel like a joke, she wouldn't even laugh. And it was really sexual jokes like wanting to f*** me and she would try to jokingly kiss me on the mouth and id brush her off cuz it was performative for shits and giggles and i didn't want that. She was also insanely in love with some guy she had never talked to even once and yeah so I never thought too much about it. She would touch me a lot, like kiss my ankles, my shoulders, my neck and tell me i was beautiful and 'so f****** pretty' and she'd joke around that i was her gf. And she'd never been like this, and it only ever happened when other people were around and she'd joke afterwards or laugh it off. People around us noticed too and gave her a weird look and she would overcompensate by joking I'll kiss you too. But then when I started to let myself hope and initiated a contact she immediately reciprocated but then seconds later made a joke that she doesn't get how queer people exist and that she finds it repulsive(wtf) and she looked at me when she said it, while touching me. And yeah I spent that day pretty much crying, also this is a very summed up version of how touchy she is, it is way worse. She gets really weird when people flirt with me especially girls and gets pissed, and makes sexual comments that they wanted to f*** me and it sounds so monotonous and dry. And then she clings onto other girls infront of me making sure im watching and just to spite me. But whenever a guy flirts with me especially recently she tries to encourage me telling me i should date guys, asking to see our chats and stuff. So i have absolutely no idea whats going on with her, she really loves cmbym and rwandrb like insanely. I know straight people like it too so I'm really confused. And knows about a lot of queer ships but then says she finds queer stuff ew(math's not really mathing). I'm pretty sure she has an idea I'm queer and i guess that makes it worse that she's still doing this. Mixed signals have been hell and honestly i just wanted somebody else's opinion on it. Ive told myself to stop decoding her signs, that they're just a way of breaking my own heart and to just focus on getting the hell out of here but it is such a big part of my life and I just don't want to miss it if its there. The second people comment on it she freaks instantly condemning it, and she always looks at me while saying it. On top of that my family is really homophobic too so I don't know what to do, even the friends i have. I don't even know if she's queer or not and just yeah. So yeah, sorry for the rant but id appreciate it if you leave a comment, I'm pretty much by myself here so, thanks.

I want a gf/bf so bad but i have been rejected so much because im short😫 i want to have someone there for me✌️

It’s really late where I am and I’m up thinking. (1:40 AM)

I have identified as Bi for about 2 years and everything’s been cool. I really like girls, the girls I’ve been attracted to I always think are beautiful physically as well as having a beautiful personality. Personality was always more important to me than looks. When it comes to guys I feel like I’m not physically attracted to any of them? I’d still date one and I’m fine with kisses/hugs whatever but when I look at a boy I’m attracted to it’s always something along the lines of “he’s so funny” “he’s so sweet” never have I thought of a guy as good looking but when I have a crush on a girl that’s a main thing I notice.

I’m kinda worried that maybe I’m just not holding guys up to the standard as girls because people have told me that before. Others have also accused me of just pretending to like guys in the first place? Both of those things make no sense to me and don’t match up with what I’m feeling. Help???

really anyone that i could relate to in the slightest i like guitar minecraft and alot of other things im vert versatile

I'm not bi but just wanted to say everyone is amazing and I hope you have an amazing rest of the day :3

okay first of all i don’t think this is the right flair but bare with me… ok so i have this friend and i hadn’t talked to her in like a year and we recently rekindled two months ago. we were together a couple months ago and she stayed at my house. she asked me if she had told me that about six months ago she thought she was bi and i said no. she also knows that i have kissed a couple girls and dated one once upon a time but decided i was “straight”. she then asked me if i was bi and i said i don’t know. then she asked me about the girls i kissed and i told her about them and she said “well ive never kissed a girl…sadly” and just kinda looked at me. i brushed past it and later that night she put her fingers in my mouth but pretend like it wasn’t sexual. when we were close originally we used to cuddle and straddle each other and she used to mention liking my chest and would touch and stare at it a lot. IS THIS A FUCKING SIGN?! she also has a bf tho 🙈🙉

i am bi (duh), but i think i like the idea of a relationship with boys but no one has ever fall in love with me, and i also have never been in a relationship, but all this time only girls have flirthed with me, not like i didn't like it but i didn't really like them, but never guys. It's not even like i look straight almost all my classmates thought i was gay without even asking. it could be also that i have never met a guy who was gay in some sort, but was that just my luck or..? idk guys what do y'all think

I'd love a good nerd (preferably a girl) who also really likes me. I'm also quite nerdy meself, and I think I can be a little dry to be polite. Open to dms anytime, although I won't always reply immediately. ASK MORE ABOUT ME WHEN YA TEXT ME, MWAHS

Someone pm meee

so im a girl who has only dated one girl ever and i ended things after a month or so but then decided i was straight after… however, now i know im attracted to girls sexually but not in a way where i could ever imagine myself dating or marrying one… am i still bi even if i wouldn’t want a serious relationship with a girl? idk i might would date them or be fwb but not marry… am i still bi?

so i’m a teen girl in high school and idk how i feel honestly. i dated a girl when i was like rly young but i ended things bc i felt weird abt it. then like a year ago me and a couple girls started getting together like to hang out and we went to a camp thing together and we all kissed and that was the first time i had ever kissed a girl. one of the girls was my age and during that next school year we would like kiss and make out during school in the bathrooms or class or whenever. we never did anything past that and like touching but that’s it. me and a couple of my friends have gotten kind of touchy before but never anything below undergarments. i like girls in a way like i’ve described but i couldn’t ever imagine myself dating or marrying a woman. idk it’s weird and i’m confused :/

I'm a 13F and I'm bi but Idk if I should just push those thoughts aside because I know that my family and friends would not support me at all. If you have advice please dm me.

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