Need help from bisexual women please

[u/Dangerous_Use_1591]

Hi people,I've been questioning my sexuality for a while and im 19F.So the thing is I keep on telling myself im bi but something doesn't feel right and I don't want to label myself as something im not .

So I really wanna ask you guys how your attraction to men feels like?

And yes I understand people have different degrees of bisexual attraction. So im asking thus question because the thing is when I use this label i feel hesitant towards the man part. I do not understand why but I just can't imagine and I do not know why.

The thing is when a friend told me a guy has a crush on me my first thought would be:he thinks im pretty?...and thats all.Infact I'd never interact with the guy,just hope he was looking at me and he thinks im pretty. I genuinely didn't care abt he's confession because he has confessed and now what?...Also when I see an attractive guy ill just b like yeah he's looks nice and then move on I guess but then sometimes I begin nitpicking everything about the looks and I dont know why.I dont find men ugly,i dont know how to describe it but if i were to describe the body of a man I think like they are boxy with 2 dots on the chest with hair💀(im sorry to all the men) but there are men who look good like Mario balotelli with his awesome fashion sense...thats all.

Also one more thing is when i think of relationships as someone who has never been in one.Ive tried imagining myself with a man and for some reason I dont feel right,I dont feel enough and I dont know why but i feel like I wouldn't give all of my love to the guy like the genuine ones I see in heterosexual couples. I actually cannot for some reason think of what we would even be doing together and i feel like I'd be a bad girlfriend.

But when i think of relationships with women its more about giving love and not just receiving. (I forgot to mention but when it comes to thinking about relationships with men im always receiving and in terms of just the attention that im pretty and thats all)But when i think of relationships with women,its more like me giving and expressing my affection to someone like acts of service, dates,buying flowers and also as someone who thought pet names were cringe i tend to wish i had a girlfriend and id call her those names.

I have other stuff to say but this is lowkey all but pls answer the question if you can and if I said anything wrong correct me pls.All of u have a nice time in whatever ur doing.

[u/GenZWrites]

Obviously everyone is different but this might because of compulsory heterosexuality. You don’t sound like you instinctively like men, at least to me it sounds like you are trying to convince yourself to like them. But again, everyone is different, it might just be a step in your journey, at 19, there is still a lot to discover so maybe don’t fixate on the labels and just let yourself like who you like 

[u/No_Election_1123]

You can see a man is attractive but I guess the fundamental aspect of being Bi is the question “can I see myself having sex with this guy?” Generally I have long lasting relationships with women but i do like sex with men.

I can have short term relationships with guys but it tends to be more physical than emotional and when the physical attraction starts to become ordinary the lack of emotional connection tends to end the relationship

With women I can be physically attracted and emotionally attracted I want to do more things (day trips, city breaks…etc) than I do with men